October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I have been doing some extra reading on everything and have met some very special people here in blogland. Also fall reminds me of my 2nd miscarriage. I wish it had never happened, I wish none of them would have happened. I have days when lots of stuff runs through my mind and sometimes I don't understand why God let this happen to us. I have been involved in Walking With You from The Beauty Of Sufficient Grace and has helped me alot. The other night my hubby and I were talking about how many children we have and what things would be like if we had the 2 that we lost. It was great because since the losses he kinda changes the subject and I was happy that this time he was able to talk. It helps me to talk about them as with any loss in my life. I guess I'm just that way. I don't like to keep my feelings inside. I would have to say it helps me heal. The other night I was doing some thinking and sorta writing down some feelings I had. My Ridge loves the song Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star , I used to sing it every night when I rocked him to sleep. I came up with this for my sweet babies who are waiting in Heaven for me.
Wonder, Wonder who you are Up in heaven so far. Boy or Girl up in heaven looking down Can't wait to meet you in that heavenly town.
I love my children all of them and not a day goes my that I don't think of them. Hugs & Kisses until we can all be a Family. To all of you out there that have lost a child, I pray for each and everyone of you. I know that one day we will all see our children again knowing that helps me and trusting in God.
I'm a wife to a very special man ~ Paul , who is just Awesome. I'm a Mommy to four wonderful , amazing children on Earth Ridge , Thaniqua , Jennifer and our Little Rainbow Baby Carly. I have four children in Heaven Riley , Little Muffin & Sweet Pea , Rosebud who I miss but know that One day we will be together. Also I have three step-children which are all in there 20's.