* Six Word Saturday and Trick or Treat Picture *

Here is how it works using six words , descibe your life ( or something ) in a phrase. If you wanta join in just link up at Show My Face

Pumpkins + Costumes + Candy + Spooky + Fun = HALLOWEEN



Last Night was Trick or Treat in our town. Here is a picture of my gang getting ready to go out. The weather was nice and kids had a blast.
Hoping whatever your Halloween plans are you have a good time.

* A Busy Afternoon - Halloween Parties *

Wow what a busy Afternoon

Three Halloween Parties

I sorta had to spread myself thin but Carly and Mom made it to all the parties at school. Amazing to Carly was really good for being here & there w/ everyone fussing over her. She usually doesn't nap during the day but she couldn't have her normal playtime today either.

Anyway , I took Jennifer to school at Noon. Decided I would just stay at school all afternoon. I stopped by Ridge's class for a little, Marie's class had there party from 12:30 - 1:15. Jennifer's party started at 1:45 - 2:30. Then at the end of the day we went back to Ridge's class while they were ending up with there's. School gets out at 3:00. Last year I went to Ridge's only since Marie's class wasn't really having a party. She was hurt so this yr I told Ridge we would just stop by before and at the end. He is such a easy going child he said that was COOL or his favorite word SWEET.

Before we left I took this picture of Carly, she is a Ladybug. This summer we went to a yard sale and Ridge found this costume for only a dollar and it was in good shape so we got it. I never really put alot into there outfits but I can tell next year Marie already is growing up and trying to be so grown at 7 yrs old.


My Little Ladybug , I think she wonders why I put this on her.


Jennifer eating a little bit at her Kindergarden Class Party


Waiting in line for some FOOD !!!

All in all we had a great time and a busy afternoon. Best thing of all there is NO SCHOOL Tomorrow !!!!!

* 6 Months *

This little girl is 6 months today.
Wow where did the time go ..........
She is changing so much everyday. She is crawling and trying so hard to say words. And just like this picture she will fall asleep anywhere she wants. She usually stays up all day but that's ok cause she has been sleeping all night since she was 2 wks old.



Just love that look.


I Love Books Already especially when people read to me.


I have found I have feet and toes. Always grabbing them.

But one thing Carly has found is cords & plugs. She is always trying to grab them so we are busy teaching her that they will hurt her.This will take some work I know. I have the covers on but it's hard to hide all the cords. She is getting better at listening.
So that's where we are and today I'm going to school with my Mom for my brother Ridge and sister's Marie and Jennifer's Halloween Parties at School.

* Prayers 4 Stellan *

This Little Guy Stellan could use your prayers today. He some SVT last nite and is back in the hospital. Tomorrow this little guy turns one. Let's all pray together that things turn around for him. If you would like to just stop by MckMama blog and let them know your thinking of them today.

* Thanks *

Just wanta say thanx for all the sweet comments on Monday's Blog post it meant alot. Yesterday was busy and I finally got some things finished that I started a couple weeks ago. So that was good :)
I also just wanted to share this and it was so cute. It was almost like my Jennifer who is 5 read my blog post, which I know she didn't. Yesterday morning after Dad and the older 2 kids went to school & work. Jennifer was watching Nick Jr and took a break to come get a drink and I was in the kitchen. She said Mommy when I get Big I wanta do things just the way you do them. You always make me Happy. I thought to myself Wow I must still be doing ok, LOL. Children are such a joy and how sometimes they know just the right thing to say. It just made me feel so good today.
On another note tonite Hubby and I are going to sit down with my step-son and try to have a pretty firm talk about things just keep us in thought that the right things get said and doesn't end up with alot of hard feelings.
Thanx so much for listening and I hope you have a great Wednesday !!!

~ Wednesdays For Wyatt - Week 2 ~

Here we go! Our second Wednesday for Wyatt! It’s quite simple to participate. All you have to do is copy and paste this post on your blog, and come back here to link up with MckLinky! Once you do that, your all set to win a great giveaway. Kristi, on of the dear women who follow my family's story has generously donated some handmade buckeye's jewelry. Thank you Kristi!

Over the last week we have gotten 123 new signatures! Over 100 of those we got last Wednesday alone. And we had 34 wonderful bloggers link up... I can't wait to see how much Wednesdays for Wyatt will grow this week!For those of you who are not familiar with my family and what we are trying to achieve, here’s a brief run down...

Our son Wyatt was diagnosed with a fatal condition at our 18 week ultrasound, but chose to carry him to term. We waited to meet our son with love, all the time praying we would get to see him alive.

On June 1, 2009, Wyatt made his way into the world by c-section. To our amazement he had a faint heartbeat and was breathing! He died two minutes later, but I’ve clung to the two minutes my son and I breathed the same air since his passing.

Upon calling to get a copy of Wyatt’s birth certificate, I found out he was listed as a stillborn. You would assume it was a mistake (like I did), but there was no mistake. According to the definition of live birth in Tennessee my son was not “alive enough” to be deemed a live born baby. His two minutes of life has gone unrecognized by my state, and I intend to change this piece of legislation so I can solidify the validity of my son’s short life.

Wednesdays for Wyatt was created to help spread awareness for a law that needs to be changed, as well as to generate more traffic to my petition. So if you’re reading this, thanks for taking the time to help our family!




This contest will be open today only. I will close MckLinky down sometime before midnight, so make sure you get linked up ASAP to make sure you are entered to win this giveaway! Thanks for helping everyone, and good luck.

~ Frustrated ~

I'm not really sure where to start but I'm so tired of feeling this way. Just seems like everytime I turn around there is something bugging me. I'm not usually this kind of person. I'm pretty Happy all the time.

I Love being a MOM and a WIFE.



Just lately everything is upseting me.

I know that maybe it's the time of year the holidays are coming up and being away from My Family in Ohio.

Missing alot of people who have passed away at this time of year.

Missing my angel babies so much more since I had Carly.

I know to that my Step-son Jared is giving us some problems at home right now.

There are other little things but I do know that I Love My Family and I hope this soon will pass.

So I'm praying so much :



Dear Lord,

Just please help me though this difficult time right now.

I know that through knowing you and trusting you I can get though anything that comes my way.

Just help me in saying the right thing at the right time.

You have blessed my life with so much.

I just wanta thank -you for all my online friends

They mean so much to me with being so far from HOME.

Thank-you Lord for everything,

In Jesus Name I Pray

Caroline.

~ Just a Little Something Neat ~

A friend of mine sent me this email a couple weeks ago and I thought I might share it with you. It's really neat if you ever wonder how long something stays good. This site tells you how long you can keep something plus other ways to keep things fresh longer. I thought it was just interesting. If you have a question just click on the picture and a whole list of stuff appears. www.stilltasty.com
What a great thing to have in your favorites.

" Six Word Saturday "

Here is how it works using six words , describe your life ( or something ) in a phrase.

Children grow up way to fast.

~ Ridge's School Trip to Lake Tahoe ~

Taylor Creek, Lake Tahoe

Yesterday was a big day for Ridge, he had a field trip to Taylor Creek, Lake Tahoe. They were going to see the spawning of Kokanee Salmon. In other words like Ridge said go see Salmon make babies. They have what is called a viewing chamber and it has glass windows and you can see all kinds of things like,Trout,crayfish, insects, and other things you would find in a creek. He said it was almost like going to the bottom of a creek without getting wet. They also had sound effects to. Also they told us to have them wear red and when they went in the viewing chamber it would attract the fish. They have a festival every year durning the first week of Oct. I know by the way he talked there was alot more he would have liked to seen so, maybe next year we can do that as a family outing.It's only about 45 min from here.
He had a great time and the weather was great. He dressed a little warmer since it's gets pretty chilly up in the mountains. He was a little sad that he didn't get to see a bear but I know one day we probably will.



Picture of Kokanee Salmon

~ Wednesdays For Wyatt

It’s official... Today is our very first post for Wednesdays for Wyatt! Thank you for coming over and participating.



It’s quite simple to participate. All you have to do is copy and paste this post on your blog, and come back here to link up with MckLinky! Once you do that, your all set to win this first ever Wednesday’s for Wyatt giveaway. Let make this a huge success, shall we?



Really quickly... (I haven't had a chance to correct my button yet. My editing program is on my OTHER computer, Wednesday's should be Wendsdays with out the ', because as I understand it, it makes it possessive. OOPS!)


Now, back to the good stuff!


For those of you who are not familiar with my family and what we are trying to achieve, here’s a brief run down...


Our son Wyatt was diagnosed with a fatal condition at our 18 week ultrasound, but chose to carry him to term. We waited to meet our son with love, all the time praying we would get to see him alive.



On June 1, 2009, Wyatt made his way into the world by c-section. To our amazement he had a faint heartbeat and was breathing! He died two minutes later, but I’ve clung to the two minutes my son and I breathed the same air since his passing.



Upon calling to get a copy of Wyatt’s birth certificate, I found out he was listed as a stillborn. You would assume it was a mistake (like I did), but there was no mistake. According to the definition of live birth in Tennessee my son was not “alive enough” to be deemed a live born baby. His two minutes of life has gone unrecognized by my state, and I intend to change this piece of legislation so I can solidify the validity of my son’s short life.



Wednesdays for Wyatt was created to help spread awareness for a law that needs to be changed, as well as to generate more traffic to my petition. So if you’re reading this, thanks for taking the time to help our family!



We are currently up to 1,253 signatures. Hurray! We’ve made it over my initial goal of 1,000 signatures, and now I’m dreaming big! You think you can help me get 5,000 signatures by Thanksgiving? I bet you could, and I hope this Wednesdays for Wyatt helps out tremendously. Post this to your blogs, facebook, myspace... wherever you can think of. I can’t wait to see how many more signatures we receive from this. I have a great feeling!



The contest will only be open today. You have until 11:59 pm to post this on your blog and come back here to link up with MckLinky in order to qualify for this Wednesdays for Wyatt giveaway. Good luck everybody and thanks for participating.

~ Read with Us - Chapter 15 and 16 ~

Join us as we continue reading with Holly, In Faithfulness, He Afflicted Me, by Lynnette Kraft.

In these 2 Chapters Lynette speaks of the day before and the day sweet Anna passed away. I know this had to be difficult knowing that one day she would pass on. I have never had to have a service for a child of mine but I do know close friends and a family member that has. When Lynnette spoke of being to busy to be sad, it made me remember my Dad's Service.
I was extra close to my Dad and when things actually had to be done I was doing them making decsions that my Mom should have been making. She was so out of it and even though we had been prepared in one sense, you still are never ready to let that person go. I can remember being so busy, my Dad died at 6am on a Thursday morning and we had calling hours on Friday nite. It was a busy time the days all seemed to roll into one and before I knew it , it was Saturday afternoon and at 2pm was the service. I can remember being in the church for the service and sitting there thinking this is it. It all came so fast and before I knew it those 3 days were gone. So I can relate to Lynnette in that way. I can also relate to when Kyle spoke at Anna's service. I was the oldest child even though I was only 21. I spoke because I had alot I wanted to share of things that made my Dad that special person to me. I also know that my case wasn't like Kyle's it wasn't like my child but I felt inside Why my Dad ??? I'm still young but I was strong and spoke without any tears until we left the graveyard. I remember after the meal at our church I walked across the road (back to the graveyard ) before I went home and thought to myself , it was a good service and looked up at the sky and smiled. I know to without God with me I could never have handled all I did alone.



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~ Short Answers ~

It's time for SHORT ANSWERS. To join in just ask the kid(s) in your life these five questions below and write down there answers word for word. Post'em up on your blog and link up to Abigail's blog Rear Window

Just to let you know how old my kids are : Ridge 9 , Marie 7, Jennifer 5.


WHAT IS SOAP MADE OUT OF ?
Ridge - liquid

Marie - unsure

Jennifer - ??????

WHY DOES BATMAN WEAR A CAPE IF HE CAN FLY ?
Ridge - look dangerous

Marie - help him go fast

Jennifer - fly better


WHAT ' S THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD TO DO ?
Ridge - Beat God of War video game

Marie - pick up a big car.

Jennifer - jump off a cliff


WHAT ' S SOMETHING YOU WISH YOU DIDN "T HAVE TO DO ?
Ridge - Getting up

Marie - waiting for my birthday in March

Jennifer - Don't leave the house


IF YOU HAD A BLOG WHAT WOULD YOU NAME IT ?
Ridge - I just started one Awesome thoughts of Ridge

Marie - Marie's Madness

Jennifer - Jen's Jams

~ Harvest Of Friends Blog Party ~

I am joining Lynette over at Dancing Barefoot on Weathered Ground for a kind of getting to know you party. Feel free to join in, it's gotta be a lot of FUN !!!

20 Weird Questions That Will Give a Little Insight Into Who You Are
(Pick whichever ones you want to use , use all of them - or make up your own)


1. What is your favorite thing to snack on while you're blogging?
Most of the time some ice cold water and pretzels or trail mix.
2. What is one thing you wouldn't want to live without?
I wouldn't want to live without having God a part of my life.
3. Beach, Mountains or Farm? Where would you live if you had a choice?
I like the beach and right now I live in the mountains, but I would much rather be on a farm or near one. I grew up with a lot of farms around where I lived and my Grandpa had a nice one when I was a child. It just makes me happy.
4. What's your least favorite chore/household duty?
Dusting, it takes so much time & with us living in the desert, I have to dust alot.
5. Who do people say you remind them of?
My Dad, he was always a pretty happy person.
6. Prefer parties and socializing or staying at home with the fam?
Staying home with family. Family time is very important to me and I know that's something I remember as a good childhood memory.
7. What's your all time favorite movie?
Wow, that's a tough one. I would have to say City Of Angels. I like movies with Meg Ryan but I enjoy that one alot.
8. Do you sleep in your make up or remove it like a good girl every night?
I don't really wear much. I'm to busy to get all fixed up and my Dad used to tell me you look great just the way you are.
9. Do you have a hidden talent or a deep desire to learn something that you've never had a chance to learn? No but I always wanted to be a nurse. What is it?
10. What's one strange thing you're really good at?
Crafts, some people call it strange.
11. What first attracted you to your spouse?
Football and he was just a all round nice guy. I like football and baseball and well sorta like NASCAR.
12. What is something you love to smell?
Cinammon Apple scent, I just love it !!!
13. Tell something about you that you know irritates people.
When I start talking about something and then just change the subject without warning, LOL. Also I have a hard time being serious, always smiling
14. When you have extra money (HA!) what's the first thing you think to do with it?
Well if I had any I would not spend it, just save it for something we might need.
15. Are you a silent laugher or a loud laugher? Loud laugher What makes you laugh the hardest? Could be anything but mostly my kids, sometimes they are just to funny.
16. Where is your favorite place to shop?
Thrift stores, I just love them if I have time to really look.
17. What's one thing you'd do more often if you had more time?
Crafts, butt being a busy Mom it doesn't give me much time.
18. Are you a big spender or frugal?
Frugal, I'm always trying to save a penny.
19. Who is your favorite character of all time (from a movie or book)? (Can't be real)
Unsure at the moment
20. Would you want to be famous?
No, I'm happy just being me.

Well that's it and I hope you have enjoyed or gotta real bang outta some of the answers. Hoping you have a great day !!!!

~ Homework & A Great Deal ~

This is just a little post of a few things we done this weekend. Jennifer was all excited when she got out of school Friday. She had homework and she was to go out and find some colorful leaves to take back to school on Monday. Well the park we live beside has a few colorful trees. Here in Nevada you just don't see all the pretty colors like back east. Anyway I told her we would go sometime over the weekend. Well Saturday afternoon we went and found some leaves. It was fun and then we went and grabbed Taco Bell for supper and brought it home, since Dad didn't wanta miss his NASCAR Race, LOL.


Jennifer looking for leaves.


Marie just playing in the leaves.


Ridge, Marie and Jennifer

This afternoon I had to run out to get a few things so I stopped by one of favorite Thrift Stores, I went there just to see if they had any cute clothes for the kids. I have found alot of stuff I like there. Well when I first walked in the door they had alot of Halloween Costumes. I thought I would check them out on the way back after checking out the Kid's clothes. When I got back by there stuff I found a dollhouse and it was only 20 dollars. I had just priced some dollhouses at Walmart when I was there on Saturday. This was a great deal and bigger than the ones there. I just had to so I bought it. I didn't find to many clothes but that was ok, I found a dollhouse. It was even Little Tikes brand.
On the way back to the front I stopped by the costumes and I found a couple for the girls. I don't get to much into Halloween but do take the kids to get a little candy. I got a good deal on those to. So all I spent was $10 on those both together.
It was a good day I came home and scrubbed the dollhouse the girls were tickled. I told them maybe if you want you could ask Santa for some stuff for inside it. I was excited, I just love going to those little shops sometimes you can find the neatest stuff.

Marie's costume


Jennifer's costume


Back side of the dollhouse


Dollhouse front view

~ Fantastic Friday ~

Wow it's Friday and it's FANTASTIC !!!!!!!




My friend Danielle from Letting Go and Letting God got her 1000 signatures plus more. So very awesome and I just wanta Thank everyone that signed. It is great that people care so much. I live on the West coast and I checked the signature list before I went to bed and there was only 6 more to before Danielle hit the 1000 mark. It's GREAT !!! I'm so happy for her. Really I'm excited and hope that when the day comes the law will be changed. If anyone hasn't signed and still wants to just click on the button "Fight For Wyatt ".Also you do not have to live in the state of Tennessee to sign, anyone can.
Well I'm wishing everyone a very Fantastic Friday and a great weekend.

Let's Get 1000 Signatures by Friday

Today let's do this Let's Help Danielle Remember her son the way he should be. Let's get 1000 signatures for her by FRIDAY !!!! Today as you know is Oct 15 Pregnancy and Infant Awareness Day. I have her story and more listed below. Please Help this Mommy, No Mom should ever have to go through something like this.


I'm asking if you could to please click on the button and read this. My friend Danielle from Letting Go and Letting God Could use your help in trying to get more signatures for her petition. Here's the story summed up short, her son lived for 2 minutes and the State of Tennessee doesn't want to recognize Wyatt's life. He was listed as stillborn so if you can please help her out. Thanx so much for your time in reading this. If you already signed I thank-you so much. You can sign you don't have to live in Tennessee only.

~ Remembering Oct 15 - Our Angels & Others ~

Today is October 15th and I'm remembering our little ones.
I'm Caroline and I'm a Mommy to two angels in heaven. I'm married to a wonderful man & father who's name is Paul. I had 2 miscarriages one on Feb 10, 2006 a little boy 12 wks and Dec 1, 2007 a baby at 8 wks. I have 4 children on earth Ridge 9 yrs old, Marie 7 yrs old , Jennifer 5 yrs old , Carly 5 months. I also have 3 step-children Justin 21 , Jared 19 and Jessica 18.
We are lighting a candles tonite and Mommy is making cookies to eat tonite when we light our candles. So wish it didn't have to be this way. I would rather have you both running and playing with your siblings. Just being here with us, but Jesus took you home to live with him. I think of both of you always and wonder why ??? I know you can see us and Mommy always looks at the beautiful sky even on a cloudy day and wonder what your doing. We never got to hold you or touch you and wonder what you look like or what would make you smile. There are so many things I wonder about and the list could go on and on............

BUT TODAY IS FOR BOTH OF YOU AND OTHERS WHO HAVE LOST.

This little note is for both of you My Sweet Angels :
We just want you to know that we love you both and you are never forgotten. I know that Jesus is taking good care of you until we can be there with you. I have days I cry but just because Mommy wishes we were all together. Last nite after your brother and sisters went to bed , Daddy and I were talking about you both. We wish we could have touched you, held you, cuddled with you and so much more. Your brother Ridge loves looking at the clouds and just wonders if it's fun there. He tells me when the clouds are fluffy like marshmallows your probably jumping on them and having a blast. That's what he would like to do. He loves having lots of fun. Your sisters think of you to and ask me Do you see them ? Mommy tells them Yes and one day we will all be together. That's what keeps us going knowing that one day we will be together.
God is great
And God is good.
And we miss you sooooo
until we can all be together as a family.
Just both of you know that we love you and miss you so much, but you are never forgotten.
Love and Kisses and {{ BIG HUGS }}
Mommy, Daddy, Ridge , Marie, Jennifer, Carly, Justin ,Jared and Jessica.

To everyone that has lost and has a angel in heaven, I'm praying for you today and always. God is always there for each and everyone of us. He will help and guide us all til we all get together with our children on that Day !! God loves us all so much, even when days are rough he will help each and everyone of us. May God bless each and everyone.

~ Wordless Wednesday ~

CAPTION THIS ? ? ? ? ?

~ Read With Us - Chapter 14 ~

Join us as we continue reading with Holly, In Faithfulness, He Afflicted Me, by Lynnette Kraft.

In this Chapter, Lynnette speaks of Anna acepting Christ into her heart. That has to be one of the greatest things in life to see your child do this.
What were your own experience of being saved / baptized like ?
I remember I was 10 yrs old and I was raised in a christian home. I remember always wanting to go live where Jesus was someday. I always enjoyed Sunday School and Vacation Bible School. I was baptized at church and right before that I had recently learned how to swim so, I wasn't scared to go under the water. It was a neat experience.
Also in this Chapter she speaks of her worrying about losing Anna and at the same time the best of things.
Have you had times when you jumped between the worst and best of things ?
I think as being a parent I always do and I shouldn't. It's just something that is there. I can remember a time that I was trying to be so strong and give everything to God , was when my Dad was in his last days with cancer. I knew he was getting ready to go home to be with God. He had fluid on his chest but he wasn't strong enough for the another surgery. At the same time I was praying that God not take him yet and wanting the best. I also remember the day before he died him asking me to get his shoes cause he was going home. He told me he could see really bright light. I believe that God told him he was coming home even though we all wanted the best, it was so hard jumping back and forth. We all knew he wouldn't have to suffer anymore.
I also am glad there is the Make A Wish Foundation. A little girl who was in Ridge's kindergarden class in Ohio got to go to Disney World . It was so exciting for her and the family. To have that kind of memories would be great, getting to do something that person really wanted.



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~ Week 11 - The Secret ~

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words but in great deeds.

I try to always think well of myself but somedays are not as easy as others. I try to do good and help my family and friends out as much as I can. I know that if someone has a need and I will try my best to do what I can to help out with whatever the need is.
I can remember when I was a Jr in high school and our class was cleaning up toys that people had donated. It made me feel good inside that some child would have a smile on there face on Christmas morning because of what we were doing.
Also I love to help out whenever I can, I try to help at my children's school , with having a little one I'm limited on what I can do but I grade papers & donate items they need. The food drive will soon be starting and I help put baskets together.
Also last week the girls and I went to the Pregnancy Care Center to donate some used clothes, that Carly had out grew and there was a older lady with a cane coming to the door and we were leaving and my Jennifer who is only 5 yrs old, held the door for the lady without being told. It made me feel good that she helped.
It just makes me feel good to do something good for someone no matter how big or small.

~ Weekend & Back To School ~

Wow it's hard to believe the weekend is over. It was a busy one. Just a few random things have been going on. First of all Friday I was fixing supper and just happened to look in the living room & there was Carly crawling just a little. Well until she seen Mommy. Of course all the kids were outside playing so it was just one of those things I got to see. She has been working on it for a couple weeks & well Mommy and Ridge have been crawling around her. So she must have picked up on it, LOL.
Saturday Marie had a birthday party to go to. It was from 11am to 1pm so we went grocery shopping. We timed it pretty good came home and put things away and time to get Marie.
The rest of the weekend was getting ready for SCHOOL !!!
I know I have blogged about it before but the kiddos go to a yr round school. They have been on a 3 week break since Sept 19th. It's been nice no one has to be at a certain place at a certain time. Just sorta get Dad off to work & just hang out. I'm ready for them to go back, not in a bad way but they are getting bored. That's why 3 wks is long enough to be home. I'm sure this time Carly will be able to tell they are gone. I could tell she knew before but now that she is getting playful, it will be different. Anyway it's back to books and homework and all those happenings that a day at school brings. To be honest I miss hearing there little stories and things that are neat or as Ridge would say " Cool" to him. Best of Luck Kids & won't be long til the next break.

My Kids love this tag one of my friends on CafeMom made it for me , just thought I would share it.

~ Please Help Danielle Out - Fight For Wyatt ~

I'm asking if you could to please click on the button and read this. My friend Danielle from Letting Go and Letting God Could use your help in trying to get more signatures for her petition. Here's the story summed up short, her son lived for 2 minutes and the State of Tennessee doesn't want to recognize Wyatt's life. He was listed as stillborn so if you can please help her out. Thanx so much for your time in reading this.

~ Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month & Some Feelings ~

October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. I have been doing some extra reading on everything and have met some very special people here in blogland.
Also fall reminds me of my 2nd miscarriage. I wish it had never happened, I wish none of them would have happened. I have days when lots of stuff runs through my mind and sometimes I don't understand why God let this happen to us. I have been involved in Walking With You from The Beauty Of Sufficient Grace and has helped me alot. The other night my hubby and I were talking about how many children we have and what things would be like if we had the 2 that we lost. It was great because since the losses he kinda changes the subject and I was happy that this time he was able to talk. It helps me to talk about them as with any loss in my life. I guess I'm just that way. I don't like to keep my feelings inside. I would have to say it helps me heal.
The other night I was doing some thinking and sorta writing down some feelings I had. My Ridge loves the song Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star , I used to sing it every night when I rocked him to sleep. I came up with this for my sweet babies who are waiting in Heaven for me.

Wonder, Wonder who you are
Up in heaven so far.
Boy or Girl up in heaven looking down
Can't wait to meet you in that heavenly town.

I love my children all of them and not a day goes my that I don't think of them. Hugs & Kisses until we can all be a Family.
To all of you out there that have lost a child, I pray for each and everyone of you. I know that one day we will all see our children again knowing that helps me and trusting in God.

~ Short Answers ~

It's time for SHORT ANSWERS. To join in just ask the kid(s) in your life these five questions below and write down there answers word for word. Post'em up on your blog and link up.

Just to let you know how old my kids are : Ridge 9 , Marie 7, Jennifer 5.


HOW ARE YOU PLANNING ON STAYING HEALTHY THIS WINTER ?
Ridge - Washing hands

Marie - Using both blankets

Jennifer - Eat veggies

HOW DO YOU SPELL CD ?
Ridge - MOM , your silly C & D

Marie - Laughing C & D

Jennifer - Laughed and said CD


IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON YOUR PROPERTY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH IT ?
Ridge - Keep it and then Dad doesn't have to work overtime for my stuff anymore.

Marie - Find out who dropped it.

Jennifer - Pay something with it.


WHY DO YOU SWEAT WHEN YOU'RE HOT ?
Ridge - Cause it's blazing at times in Nevada

Marie - Cause I was running.

Jennifer - unsure


IF YOU WERE A SUPERHERO WHAT WOULD YOUR NAME BE ?
Ridge - Frodo

Marie - Bella

Jennifer - Fish Friends

~ Read With Us - Chapter 13 ~

Join us as we continue reading with Holly, In Faithfulness, He Afflicted Me, by Lynnette Kraft.

In this Chapter, Lynnette speaks of Anna's upcoming surgery and talking to the doctors about it. The doctor didn't think at the time Anna would do well with the surgery. Anna was older now and understood more of what was going on. Lynnette asked God for strength to encourage her. She also speaks of how Anna always trusted her parents well in anything that was going on. Lynnette also speaks of some different memories of Anna. My favorite one from the book was reading the bible and drinking coffee. I sure bet that was cute sitting in her little chair. Memories are the best always, I don't know what I would do without all of mine.

What special memory do you have of a loved one who is no longer here ?
I would have to say my Dad, we were very close and he was a fun Dad. He was always doing something with all of us when he wasn't working. My Dad and I always planted a big garden and he always made weeding fun. It's not really but we would joke around so it made the time go fast and sorta almost forgot what we were doing.
I would also have to say my Grandma she was a christian lady and I learned alot from her. I used to go and stay in the summer time alot and she taught me alot about cooking. One day we made homemade noodles and it was so much fun. I didn't see how she could get the dough that thin without them falling apart. We dried the dough & cut them apart it was fun. I have tried to do but Grandma had the special touch. I enjoyed anytime I spent with her.

~ October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month ~

Since October is breast cancer awareness month, I thought I would share my Grandma's story. My sweet Grandma was 46 yrs old when she found out she had breast cancer. She had to have a double mastectomy and she lived to be 95. When she did pass away in 1999, she had a stroke. She beat the odds and I always thought as growing up that was so neat.
Also in 2002 my Mom was 67 yrs old and had to have a double mastectomy. She is doing well so far through all the chemo.She has been cancer free for 7 years Praise God !!! Every year my Mom walks in the Relay for Life. I know the road ahead for me and my sister. I check myself daily and already get yearly mammograms so far. I wonder if someday it will happen to me but I trust the Lord and if it does he will see me through just like my Mom and Grandma.

To everyone I would like to say make sure you get yourself checked out, it's so important It only takes a minute to check. 5 minutes a week gains a lifetime with your loved ones.

~ Kreativ Award - Find out something new ~

I was given this award by April . She is a great friend I met in blogland and is also in the reading group with me from Caring for Carleigh. She is a very sweet lady and has a son named Jackson who is soon to turn 1 yr old. She recently started a Boutique Store called April Accents You should really stop by and check it out.

So here are the rules:
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy logo and paste it to your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people may not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated.

Here our my 7 things some you may already know but I tried to come up with some I haven't used before.

1. My favorite color is Purple and before I had children I always decorated my Christmas tree in all purple. It was so AWESOME !!!

2. I didn't have my first child until I was 35.

3. I have 4 children and the first 3 are 2 yrs apart and it wasn't even planned that way.

4. I love riding 3 and 4 wheelers. I was in a terrible accident in 1986 and had over 200 stitches and I still ride.

5. I can't stand a messy house, I like it looking lived in but not messy. I guess some people call me a neat freak, LOL.

6. I just started blogging this past spring and I love it. I also enjoy reading blogs to and have met some very special people.

7. I love the outdoors and going on walks with my family or whatever we decide to do. There's just something about being stuck inside I don't like.

Well here is a list of the 7 Kreativ Bloggers I have nominated :

1. Little Ladybugs

2. Momma Morgan

3. Kelci

4. Adrienne

5. Linda

6. Melissa

7. Trennia

~ Six Word Saturday ~

Here is how it works using six words , descibe your life ( or something ) in a phrase

One week left, til school starts

My children go to a year round school and this coming week is our last week of vacation. I am looking forward to them going back but then again I'm not. They are starting to get bored and ready to go see there friends again. I like spending time with them & just having a break in the early fall time. So we our all going to enjoy this last week together.

~ I Lost It ~

Yesterday I done something I never have done before.I yelled at my step-son Jared. He is 19 and of course the great age for knowing everything. I was having a not so good day. I guess you would call it a very emotional day for me. Here lately lots of things have been bothering me and I'm not usually like this. We have been having some issues at home with him but I just sorta try to stay out of it and let my husband handle it. Jared helps out alot with the older kids, like if he isn't working all the kids sorta hang out together which is good. Jared was only 13 when I met him and for the past 4 yrs he has lived with us. I felt really bad after I did it but then I felt to like I had a of stress lifted. Not to go into alot of details but Jared's Mom lives in Ohio and she never calls , e-mails or tries to get in touch with him. I always feel bad like how could you not talk to one of your kids that you carried inside you for 9 months. I know if it was me I would wonder no matter how old he or she was , just what was going on in there life. He graduated in 2008 and she never said anything. The funny thing is before my husband today & his x-wife split up Jared was like her favorite. Well yesterday after I got upset the kids & I went to run some errands. Jared went to work. I called my husband later and told him what happened. Jared came home from work and didn't speak to me, I thought maybe it's better that way for now. This morning Jared got up and he acted like nothing happened. He has been better today and maybe yesterday just needed to happen. So maybe it was a good thing I lost it , I just don't like being like that.