Sunday, January 3, 2010

My Thoughts and A Prayer

Well this is a New Year and I was hoping not to start off on this foot but it is weighing heavy on my heart. I feel I just need to vent and get these feelings out.

Well this has to do with my step-children and I wonder why things have to be like this. We all used to live in Ohio at one time and every other weekend and every Wednesday we would have my husband's children. I loved it and yes they were older than mine but we all got along so well.

At least I thought ........

Well now that we live in Nevada, they hardly ever call , write or send a email. I'm sorry I don't buy it that they are to busy. Jessica is 18 and attends Mount Vernon Nazarene College. Justin is 21 and also attends the same college. You know it really bothers me and I am not there mother. I am there little sister's mother , Jennifer who is 5 and Carly who is 8 months. They never even ask about them sometimes I wonder do they even care.

I know that living far away from family is tough. I miss mine and I haven't been home since we moved 2 yrs ago. I still call my family once a week just to see what's up??????

Why ??????

Because I care no matter how far away I am. It just hurts me because it seems the only time we hear from them is when they need something. They both have Facebook accts like us but they won't talk first. We always have to start everything. Here it is Christmas and New Year's and nothing. Not a word at Thanksgiving either.

I guess all I can do is pray that one day they realize how important family is. I don't live like today is my last but I do know what it is like to not have a parent or a child or a loved one missing anyday and just wish you could run out there and say Hello or I Love You !! Sometimes I don't know what to say to Jennifer when she asks about them but I always tell her I know they love and miss you too.

It's just tough somedays when I stop and think about it but I know that I love each one of them just like they were my own and I pray because my hubby Paul keeps alot inside but I know it hurts him to.

So hoping that this New Year brings a change.

God Bless


Adrienne said...

So sorry to hear this Caroline and that it upsets you. Of course I can see why it upsets you and I hope this year will bring some change for your stepchildren and that they will reach out to you all out of love not just out of wanting something. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Trennia said...

Me and you both sister!
There is NO excuse good enough if you ask me.Two of my stepchildren don't live thirty minutes away and the other no more then an hour...
We have lived here for almost 12 years, have the same phone number for 10 years so there is no excuse!
I'm sorry you are and have been going through this too.My stepchildren are 28 almost 29,26 and the other is 24 so they are not babies,children or teens just they act like it!
Sorry I'm fed up with the bull my stepkids give out and none of my stepchildren gave a care about Emily (they never even said, I love you to her never held her either!)The heck with them from now on! I'm done...praying things will turn around for your family.

Franchesca Cox said...

I'm so sorry that your step-kids are acting this way. I know it must hurt so badly that they don't see how important family is and how their neglect is hurting others. I hope they see it sooner than later. Praying for you and for this year to bring change in this area for your family.


stitchndeb said...

What if you called them once a week (same time/day) for 4 months till they got in the habit of hearing from you, because after that the first week you didn't call, they'd miss it. Tell them how sad you are, maybe they don't know. Tell them you and their father and their little sisters love them and want to keep in touch with them and want to hear about their lives (maybe they don't know!).

I don't have much contact with my parents either because I think they don't care about me and are still mad at me. ~Debbie

Lea said...


Sorry to hear this. Family is so tricky, isn't it? I pray that they come around and soon.... they will realize what they are missing.


Holly said...

I'm so sorry that they don't check in like they should. It is important to at least make a call once in awhile. I know things can get busy but even 5 minutes is better than nothing. Do they realize how much it means to you guys for them to call or write or something?

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