Well this is a New Year and I was hoping not to start off on this foot but it is weighing heavy on my heart. I feel I just need to vent and get these feelings out.
Well this has to do with my step-children and I wonder why things have to be like this. We all used to live in Ohio at one time and every other weekend and every Wednesday we would have my husband's children. I loved it and yes they were older than mine but we all got along so well.
At least I thought ........
Well now that we live in Nevada, they hardly ever call , write or send a email. I'm sorry I don't buy it that they are to busy. Jessica is 18 and attends Mount Vernon Nazarene College. Justin is 21 and also attends the same college. You know it really bothers me and I am not there mother. I am there little sister's mother , Jennifer who is 5 and Carly who is 8 months. They never even ask about them sometimes I wonder do they even care.
I know that living far away from family is tough. I miss mine and I haven't been home since we moved 2 yrs ago. I still call my family once a week just to see what's up??????
Because I care no matter how far away I am. It just hurts me because it seems the only time we hear from them is when they need something. They both have Facebook accts like us but they won't talk first. We always have to start everything. Here it is Christmas and New Year's and nothing. Not a word at Thanksgiving either.
I guess all I can do is pray that one day they realize how important family is. I don't live like today is my last but I do know what it is like to not have a parent or a child or a loved one missing anyday and just wish you could run out there and say Hello or I Love You !! Sometimes I don't know what to say to Jennifer when she asks about them but I always tell her I know they love and miss you too.
It's just tough somedays when I stop and think about it but I know that I love each one of them just like they were my own and I pray because my hubby Paul keeps alot inside but I know it hurts him to.
So hoping that this New Year brings a change.
4 years, 3 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days.
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