~ Project 365 - Day 59 ~

Ridge's Birthday Cake. He loves for me to make it rather than buy one. This year we decorated it with some of his Army men.
Happy Birthday Ridge ~ I love you

~ Happy Birthday Ridge ~

11 yrs ago , I was blessed with the biggest surprise of my life.

A precious son.



Today I just wanta said Ridge , you have changed my life so much. I will never forget looking into those dark brown eyes and feeling so much love. It's hard to believe you are as big as you are. We have been through so much together.

Happy Birthday " Ridge ".

May your day be filled with all those good things and so many wonderful blessings.

We all love you so much. Have a happy day !!!!!!!

~ Project 365 - Day 58 ~

I hardly ever eat junk food like this but yesterday I seen these at the store and thought I would give them a try. They sounded really good. I totally love them. Right now they are just in little bags so that's great too.

Birthday Season

The Happy Birthday Season starts in our home tomorrow , for our children on earth.

I'm happy that I'm blessed with these wonderful children.

At the same time my heart is sad that there our children who don't get a cake from me. There favorite supper made. I'm just emotional these days knowing that usually Spring meant a new baby , another side of happiness to my life. Even though it's tough , I don't let it show to the others.

I just had to get that out , I miss you little ones in Heaven. Even though your not here to celebrate just know your in our thoughts as we sing Happy Birthday to those that our here.

Mommy loves you so much & miss you. I can't wait til that wonderful day when we can celebrate all those birthdays together Forever.

~ Project 365 - Day 57 ~

Our Thaniqua's Beautiful Blue Ribbon ~ Science Fair Project 2011.
Her first time ever doing one.
We are so very proud of her.
Love you Thaniqua <3

~ Project 365 - Day 56 ~

Lots of snow today ~ Lots of floaty kisses from Heaven.

Please Pray

I saw this link on Facebook the other day and I started following there blog.

Please pray for this family , they recently lost there only child "Maddie". A new Angel in Heaven my heart is broken with them. kandjstaats.blogspot.com

First Place ~ Great Day for Thaniqua

Today was a great day !!!!!!!!!!

Our Thaniqua won First place in the Science Fair.

She is a third grader and now gets the chance to go take her project to the University of Reno entering it in the Science Fair there.

So very proud of her getting this chance to go on. We don't have a date yet from the school when she goes but we are just so excited for her.

Most of all what a wonderful memory we made together !!!!!!!

Plus today's picture of Thaniqua's Science Project is my entry for Project 365.

Signs from Above

Yesterday was good but emotional. It was one of my friend's on Facebook a BLM her daughter's first birthday in Heaven. For the past few days it has been on my heart. It also made me think extra about our children in Heaven. So yesterday when I was walking to the children's school to get them , I happened to look up and in front of the school was this cloud , almost shaped like a heart. I was amazed and thought it's a sign I Love You.



I know when I'm out walking or whatever sometimes I just feel so close to them even though I know they are with me always. I was happy and the kids got out of school in time to see the cloud. Yay !!!!!!!!

Later on we were getting ready to go to the school Science Fair after supper. Everybody was getting buckled in and then Paul started the van. What song do you think came on the radio ?????? Iris ~ Goo Goo Dolls. I love that song so much and everyone knows how much I love that movie City of Angels which is where the song is from. Before I could say anything Ridge said Mom there is your song. I was in tears two wonderful things to remind me of my children in the same day. The song wasn't finished by the time we got to the school but we finished listening to it before we went inside. Thaniqua said Mom just maybe our siblings wanted to go to the Science Fair with us. My heart melted , it was a moment I won't forget.

~ Project 365 - Day 54 ~

Our beautiful snow covered Sierra mountains with the sun shining on them. I love the mountains with the snow. Just beautiful. Supposed to get some more tomorrow evening. They say high in the mountains anywhere from 4ft - 9ft felt over last weekend , Wow. Here in the valley we got 14 inches.

A Conversation & Pooh

I really love this quote plus I love Winnie the Pooh.

This makes me think of a conversation my son Ridge was having. He had no idea I was listening. It was sweet and I know I only caught the middle of it. Monday when there was no school and he was playing with his Lego's and the girls were making noise in the living room. I walked back the hallway. I heard Ridge talking but I knew no one was in there. He was talking to his siblings in Heaven. I heard him say , My birthday is next Monday & I wish you all could be here. Oh yeah and Mom she is the coolest Mom. I know she misses you alot all of us do. Mom always says your always in our hearts. Then he went on to say I can't wait to meet you all someday. I was in tears and I thought of that Winnie the Pooh quote. My Ridge he is so great all the kids are. He doesn't care where he is or where at he will talk to them just like he is right there with them. Just melts my heart.

~ Project 365 - Day 53 ~

I Love Hearts

A Verse That Helps Me

I love this verse. The other day when I was sad , crying about everything it seemed like. Hearing news from back home that was sad. Sometimes just thinking of the struggles we go through. I can't wait for the day that this old world is no more. I don't know much about eternity other than what I have read in the Bible but I'm excited to live in a world where there is no more pain or sorrow. Most of all no more death.

This morning I was thinking of a dear friend , her little precious daughter is celebrating her first birthday in Heaven tomorrow. I know how she has been sad and crying and so wish I could help her and others. Then I think of this verse and it gives me a peace to know there is a time when this will be true for all of us. I just can't wait til Life with God forever.

Little of This and That

First of all this post is all over the place.

I want to thank you all for the prayers for my BFF's Father. He had to have most of his stomach removed. I know that he is in ICU still probably for a few more days then to a regular room. Not sure on the time for any of it but I know he has a long road to getting back to normal. This started out as a little surgery but he had some other problems develop. God is good and watching over them all. Please keep them in your prayers.

Thaniqua's teacher was out of school all last week. Her mother had a kidney transplant done. She has cancer but not sure of how bad. So please keep her and her family in your prayers. Thank you so much.

Today was Presidents day of course. It was nice not to have to jump up and get the kids ready. I still got up Paul was supposed to be off but he had to go in. He made good money today since it was considered a holiday for him. Yay !!!

The best thing was Ridge and Thaniqua have been working on science fair projects. Well they are due tomorrow and we got them finished yesterday. It has been a lot of work but fun to. Ridge did his on What types of video games are played by males and females. I let him pick so maybe he would be interested in it. Turned out well. Thaniqua did Which is colder longer a plastic bottle of soda or a can of soda ? Well it went well too. Thaniqua was right on her guess the plastic bottle won. I'm excited to see how they do. Judging is tomorrow night and the Science Fair is Wednesday evening. No matter if they win or not we had fun TOGETHER !!!!!

I had a good day to just spending time with my kids. Yesterday was just some stress and being homesick for Ohio but I'm good , I have to be I'm a very busy Mom. Thanx for all those sweet comments. Hope your day was great.

~ Project 365 - Day 52 ~

Science Fair Projects have been a big deal at our home lately. Over the past month we have been working on them a little everyday. Yesterday we finished both of them. Thaniqua had to do one , so did Ridge. A lot of work but also had some fun doing them together. This was a picture of Ridge's. Good Luck to both of them.

Tough Day

Well I'm so ready for some quiet time. There is no school tomorrow so the kids will probably stay up a bit later tonite. It's been a tough day. WHY ????? I have no reason. My mind was just wandering so many places.

So after a good cry earlier.


My Mom always told me it's good to let it out. I feel better. Gonna get the kids some ice cream and read some blogs and just have some good Mommy time.

Have a great one & if you have tomorrow off enjoy it , I know I'm going to try. If your not off still have a great one.

~ Project 365 - Day 51 ~

My pretty butterfly I won from Franchesca during one of her giveaways. Butterflies so make me smile.

~ Project 365 - Day 50 ~

Today I went to a birthday party with my daughter Jennifer. It was a friend in her class from school. Everything was decorated in the Tinkerbell theme. Simply beautiful !!! Happy Birthday Lindsey !!!
I thought of one of my BLM friends as her daughter's first birthday is this coming wk. She loves butterflies and Tinkerbell as she remembers her daughter. I thought of how she would have loved the party. Happy Birthday to your sweet Princess !!

Hope is Amazing - Small Miracles

Today I'm linking up with my dear friend Franchesca for a blog hop on Hope.
What small or big miracles have brought you hope lately ??

Well after I had my first miscarriage in Feb 2006 , my oldest son Ridge was turning six in 18 days. He was little but when I talked with him about why Mommy was at the hospital he seemed to understand. I would have to say that my Ridge gave me so much Hope. I'm a christian and I believe that one day I will meet those children that I have lost. Heaven seems so far sometimes. Back to Ridge in the months that passed after. I would find him playing with his cars and talking to his brother that I lost. It made my heart smile to know that he has Hope that he will see and play with his brother and the other 2 children I have lost. We may be walking home from school or at the park and Ridge will start talking to them. Like he knows that I need to hear that hope of one day. It's all the little simple things that my kids do that make me feel so much Hope.

I enjoy looking at sunsets and the beauty of God's fingerpainting. The hope of a beautiful sunset brings another beautiful day. I know that God is good and that my children all of them give me the hope of another day with them.

So as I look at the picture below I have the hope of another day and the hope of another day closer to being with those children in Heaven.



Psalm 147:11
The LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.

So if you would like to please link up by clicking on the button at the top and submitting your story of Hope.

Prayer Request

I have a special prayer request. My very BFF that has been my childhood friend forever. Her Father is in the hospital and had to have a another surgery today on his stomach. They ended up having to remove most of it because he had a hole in it. This is his third surgery since Feb 2nd. Please pray for him. He is in ICU & resting as of tonite. He is just like my second Father. Thanx so much your wonderful.

~ Project 365 - Day 49 ~

As pretty as a Christmas Card picture , the snow fell last nite and still is. Beautiful , the mountains have had as much as 9 feet from this storm. We however got a nice foot in the valley.

~ Project 365 - Day 48 ~

Little Miss Carly in a deep thought. I always wonder what they are thinking. So precious my little girl. I Love You Carly.

Grocery Shopping Savings

Grocery Shopping , one of my not so favorite things. Really I don't mind it if I was rich. Things cost so much. I'm such a penny pincher. I always sit down and plan for the week. Well I shop at Smith's or Walmart. Sometimes both to just get a deal. Well last week they had some great deals going on at Smith's for every ten items you buy that they have selected you get five dollars off. Alot of it was things I use and even name brand. I don't always go shopping alone usually my hubby is there but he doesn't look at the prices , Lol.

Well this is how I ended up last week and I was pretty proud of myself. It's not a easy task staying within budget feeding these kids. Seems like they eat all the time , not really but I'm not complaining it's just difficult nowadays. I must say my hubby was very happy with me for sure.

Take a look ~


I was proud of myself. I don't usually buy name brand but this week I could and saved a pile. So very happy !!!!

Just so you know this is about the best I have done in one shopping trip.
Yay 4 Great Sales !!!!

Snow & Nervous

This is what I woke up to this morning " SNOW " . I love snow , not driving in it but the past six weeks we haven't seen much of it. It's been kinda warm the past few days have been in the high 50's low 60's. I have to admit I enjoyed it. Carly was able to get outside and enjoy it. I take her out for things we have to do but she misses going out to run and play.

I also woke up this morning to Ridge being very nervous. I guess from what he told me he woke up in the night a few times. He had a oral book report to do at school. He has been working hard on it and last night when he was typing it up and adding pictures here and there I was amazed at how much he really knows about the computer. Anyway he wouldn't eat breakfast and I told him he should try to eat something but he wouldn't ............. I thought about him a lot at 10:30 this morning that's when he said he would be doing it. Well I went to pick them up after school and there was my smiling Ridge. Things went well and he told me as soon as he got done he felt a lot better. I told him I knew you would do fine. He told me the teacher was happy at how much time he put into it. I told him the great thing was at his age he put it together all by himself. I told him the next time he has to do one it won't be as bad. So proud of you Ridge !!!!!!

~ Project 365 - Day 47 ~

Gas prices too high !!!
I can remember growing up and they were under a Dollar.