This post is kinda all over the place. Just so much on my mind these days. For one I can't believe it's Thanksgiving this week. It's emotional for me and my hubby. I remember when I used to love the holidays as a child or even when I was a little older. As some of you know I have been writing everyday something I'm thankful for which as been fun. It makes you stop and think of just how thankful we should be.
My Grandpa died on Thanksgiving 24 yrs ago it was a lot to handle but I'm saving that for a different post. My husband Paul lost his Mom quite a while ago but right around Thanksgiving time. He was only 13 years old. I think of how that had to hurt. So I try real hard to be upbeat for him this week. There is just something about your Mom you always want , it never goes away.
Then on Dec 1 is 3 years since we said Goodbye to a child we never got to hold or see but we loved that baby so much. It's better for us we can both talk about things and feelings we have now.
For me it's being so far from my family. I'm not complaining but I miss them and I get to go home in June for my brother's wedding. I'm so excited !!!!! Sunday my sister Colleen had Thanksgiving at her house for our side of the family. Well she called me and I got to talk to everyone and even laugh but there were tears on both ends of the phone. I'm glad she called me , I felt like part of me was there.
I guess out of all of this is I wish Heaven had a phone line that we could call and talk to one another. I think how I miss ones that aren't here but then I think because I accepted Jesus into my heart and I believe. That one day I will be with all those I love and others to meet. That's what gets me through is knowing that one day this life will be over and I'm so thankful I'm heaven bound.
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