Tuesday's Thoughts

The past couple weeks have been tough. I'm not complaining but I have been sad. I'm not feeling sorry for myself but GRIEF has gotten a hold of me. I try my best to fake a smile sometimes , cause I know somewhere , someone else is having a harder time than me. It's just the holidays which I love and when you have kids they are just so special.

Losing people which everyone goes through in this lifetime is something we can't escape. It's sad it hurts , sometimes I wish I knew when it was going to happen but only God knows that. I remember my Mom telling me you really wouldn't want to know sweetie. It's never easy to let go even if someone is given a certain amount of time or just is up and gone. The past two weeks I have lost 6 people I know 2 were related and others were friends. Then there just is the normal missing ones that have already gone this time of year.

Over the weekend I decided I wanted to do something to make someone else SMILE that might be hurting. Paul had to work the weekend so I had a little extra time with just the kids and I. I was going through some images on the computer and I decided on one to use for my BLM friends or anyone else that wanted one. Yesterday I put the ones I had done on facebook. After the ones I made them for seen them it was nice to here the kind words they had to say. It made my heart feel good to make someone else HAPPY. It sorta took some of that sadness that I have been feeling away. I know it's still there but I'm doing better.

Here is the image I used and if anyone would like one with the name of a special someone that has passed on I would love to do it for you or them. I put Angel Babies to remember my sweet children that are already in Heaven.



I remember something my Dad told me once when I was young. We were going to someones calling hrs. I asked Dad why we go to a lot of them. Our parents took us when we were young not real small but old enough to know what is going on. My Dad told me that going to this ( Calling hrs ) is no different then being happy when we welcome a child through birth. People need you to be there for them. Sure it is a SAD time but it is life. He also told me you never know when you might have to walk that road and it is so much easier to have people there. Dad you really taught me alot and I'm so thankful.

Thankful ~ Day 30

30 days of Thankfulness

Day 30 ~ I'm thankful that I grew up in a home with both my parents. There is so much spliting up nowadays. It's tough on children. My parents taught us what a real love relationship is all about the Good and the Bad. I seen my parents go through a lot but they stuck it out.

So fitting as it is I would like to remember my parents wedding anniversary today. If my father was alive they would be married 47 yrs.

Happy Anniversary Dad and Mom !!!!!

Love ya

19 Months ~ Our Rainbow ~ Carly

19 months already .........

No Way ........ it doesn't seem possible. Paul and I were talking the other night and it's so hard to believe. Carly is so active and just picking up on things so quickly. Of course with the other siblings it shouldn't be such a surprise.

She eats just about anything , so glad she isn't real picky. She does love salad any kind. I usually eat salad for lunch , I make her something else plus she helps me eat mine. I also make Broccoli salad and she really loves that. I'm glad all my kids eat it.

She watches Nick Jr a lot and is learning so much from Dora. She just two weeks ago learned to say " I did it " like Dora. It's so cute. she says it all the time. She is saying more making little sentences. My favorite is "thank you Mom ,Mom " She tells everyone that when they give her something. I joked with Paul remember when she was little and all we heard was Da ,Da well now it's my turn , Lol.

I went to my WIC appt on Nov 8th and Carly weighed 31 lbs and 31 inches. They were happy with her. We our too.

I just love this picture of her.



I caught this one while she was watching TV and I put her hair up on top. She doesn't like to wear anything in her hair. I just love all those curls , she got them from me , Lol. I had black curly hair when I was little.



Happy 19 months " Carly "

We love you so much.

Thankful ~ Day 29

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 29 ~ I'm thankful for thrift stores. Kids grow out of clothes so fast and the way things cost nowadays. I just love going there anyway you can find the neatest things.

Simple Truths

A friend of mine emailed me this , it is wonderful.

Thought I would share it on here.


Simple Truths - We Hope You Enjoyed the movie!

Another Nov 28th

Another Thanksgiving over.....

Another Nov 28th .........

Another year without my Grandpa Zollars ....

I still miss him so and especially at Thanksgiving time. I will never forget how just the day before Thanksgiving there was my sister Colleen and my cousin Steve. They were both sick and hadn't got the chance to see Grandpa. he was slowly slipping away. The evening before he passed they both were allowed to go in his room. I remember thinking how I didn't want him to leave. It had just been 3 months to the day he died that I lost my Dad and my Mom lost her husband. Now she was losing her Father. I thought it is so unfair. It hurt , but in the middle of our Thanksgiving dinner the hospital called to say he was gone. I remember my Grandma who was with us , not shedding a tear. One of the strongest ladies I know. She told us God allowed everyone to get to see him and that was good. He taught me a lot in the summers I stayed with them and I know how much he loved God.

So another year down .........

Another anniversary of his death......

Another day closer to getting to see him..............

It's been 24 yrs but it still feels like yesterday..........

Grandpa I love you and I miss you but one day soon we will see each other. I can't wait.

Love you forever

Thankful ~ Day 28

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 28 ~ I'm thankful that when I carried my children I never got a stretch mark. I have a couple friends that have some pretty big ones. If I would have gotten one I would have been ok with it but I'm just glad I didn't. :)

A Wonderful Lesson in Giving

This is how the food drive at the children's school added up. They did rather well once again. They sent notes home to have your child bring in a can of food a day for two weeks. Which is a good way to get food brought in. This how it all came out in the end. Really proud of everyone involved.


Our school as a whole donated 3180 cans to F.I.S.H.
Our school came in 4th out of 12 schools.

Mrs Olsen's 3rd grade class donated the most cans - 414

Student that donated the most was Brennan Plunkett - 230 cans.

Here is a message from F.I.S.H.

" Thanks to all the principals , teachers , students , parents , relatives and neighbors who worked hard on this drive. The Homeless and Hungry will enjoy the food you collected."

Our family donated some extra things in memory of our children we lost. We donated diapers , baby food and wipes. Things that they don't normally get but I know there are those little ones out there that need things to.

Once again a very good job from everyone.

Six Word Saturday

Here is how it works using six words , describe your life ( or something ) in a phrase.

Hoping for Ohio State to win !!!

Today is the Big Game between Ohio State / Michigan. I might live in Nevada but my heart is in Ohio. Go Ohio State , hopin you can come out with a BIG WIN , even though I have some really good friends that are Michigan fans.

GO OHIO STATE !!!!


Have a Happy 6WS and a Awesome upcoming wk.

If you would like to join in all you have to do is click on the button at the top.

Thankful ~ Day 27

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 27 ~ I'm thankful for patience. I have been blessed with a lot. It takes a lot to make me upset.

Our Thanksgiving

This Thanksgiving was different. I wanted to try something new. I didn't buy a turkey. I just got a turkey breast. We have always had a turkey and it's hard for us to get it all ate. Paul's not big on dark meat and either are the kids. Jared won't eat Turkey so I always buy a few Ham slices. I put the turkey breast on at midnight and cooked it in the crock pot. When I got up the house smelled so good. I made breakfast and then I made homemade dinner rolls. The girls helped me it was really fun. We watched the parade and then ate about 2pm.

We live right beside Walgreens and they were open , so I walked over to see what they had on sale. I found two presents a piece for each of the kids and only spent $ 60 dollars. Paul was happy with it. I hadn't done anything yet. Last year at this time I was done. For some reason it just doesn't seem like it should be time.

This morning Paul , Carly and I went to Walmart to get groceries. We got there about Ten. It was so crazy. Paul has to work the rest of the weekend so I had to go today. We got a present for Carly so now all we have to do is finish the other kids. They stayed home with Jared while we went.

Today I finished putting up our Christmas stuff. We put our tree up last Sunday night. I never put it up before Thanksgiving but for some reason I just felt like it. So that was our thanksgiving and it went really well. I think from now on I will buy a Turkey Breast so much easier. Just a quiet couple days TOGETHER.

Thankful ~ Day 26

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 26 ~ I'm thankful that I'm not a big Black Friday Shopper. I guess I just put back money for something and get it that way. Today I went to Walmart at ten or so and it was still crazy. Please don't get me wrong I have friends that go but I'm just not one to stand in line for hrs.

Happy Thanksgiving

From the Pilgrims




To the falling leaves



The Turkey



To the Cooked Turkey Dinner



To the Yummy Pumpkin Pie



I wanta wish everyone a very Happy Thanksgiving !!!



Day 25 ~ I'm thankful for so much and a day to eat lots of yummy food and be with people you love.

Hoping today is very wonderful for each and everyone of you. If you are missing a special someone I pray for you to have a peaceful holiday season. If you are traveling please stay safe this holiday weekend.

Be Thankful ~ Trusting God in Hard Times

This really spoke to me today.

Be Thankful ~ Trusting God in Hard Times.



As this time of year is hard with out ones we love being here with us what a great reminder. There is always something to be Thankful for.

Also today I'm remembering my husband Paul , his mother. She passed 38 yrs ago today. I never got to meet her but I'm sure she was just as sweet as her son.

Lots of {{HUGS}} and Kisses to Heaven.

Thankful ~ Day 24

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 24 ~ I'm thankful for the great relationship I have with my children. I feel like there is nothing that we can't talk about , Good or Bad. I hope it always stays this way. Being open and honest with each other is the best thing in the world.

Sad News

Yesterday I went to school to pick up my kiddos. I came home to a phone call from my sister with some sad news. A family friend of ours was killed Sunday in a Farm accident. Not sure of the details but that really doesn't matter. It happened shortly after we talked when they were going to have Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday. My brother who is a fireman and EMT went to the accident. It was a lot anyway but more so when you know the person. Sometimes I don't see how he does it but after it's over it usually takes it hard. It's a gift to be able to handle that and I'm so blessed that he can do it with God's help.

This is my status on Facebook today

Was once told this life is like a rose garden , God seems to pick the best ones. Today that feels true. ~ RIP Zach ~ Praying for the Kerr Family.

Zach was 26 yrs old and just always has a smile to offer. He was a father and husband. A very good friend and the best thing is he knew the Lord. It doesn't make this any easier for the family and friends but Zach would want us all to be happy and no tears. He will be missed but one day we will meet again.

So my heart is heavy but I'm praying for this family and friends. His brother George is in the service in Afganistan. He is on his way home , please keep this family in your prayers. Remembering God is Good throughout any storm.

Thankful ~ Day 23

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 23 ~ I'm thankful for my children's good night sleep habits. They all go to bed and stay there. Once in a while one will want to get up for the bathroom or a drink but otherwise they sleep all night and make sure Mom gets her rest. Even as babies they all slept all night. :)

Thoughts this Week

This post is kinda all over the place. Just so much on my mind these days. For one I can't believe it's Thanksgiving this week. It's emotional for me and my hubby. I remember when I used to love the holidays as a child or even when I was a little older. As some of you know I have been writing everyday something I'm thankful for which as been fun. It makes you stop and think of just how thankful we should be.

My Grandpa died on Thanksgiving 24 yrs ago it was a lot to handle but I'm saving that for a different post. My husband Paul lost his Mom quite a while ago but right around Thanksgiving time. He was only 13 years old. I think of how that had to hurt. So I try real hard to be upbeat for him this week. There is just something about your Mom you always want , it never goes away.

Then on Dec 1 is 3 years since we said Goodbye to a child we never got to hold or see but we loved that baby so much. It's better for us we can both talk about things and feelings we have now.

For me it's being so far from my family. I'm not complaining but I miss them and I get to go home in June for my brother's wedding. I'm so excited !!!!! Sunday my sister Colleen had Thanksgiving at her house for our side of the family. Well she called me and I got to talk to everyone and even laugh but there were tears on both ends of the phone. I'm glad she called me , I felt like part of me was there.

I guess out of all of this is I wish Heaven had a phone line that we could call and talk to one another. I think how I miss ones that aren't here but then I think because I accepted Jesus into my heart and I believe. That one day I will be with all those I love and others to meet. That's what gets me through is knowing that one day this life will be over and I'm so thankful I'm heaven bound.

Thankful ~ Day 22

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 22 ~ I'm so thankful for our home. It may not always be where I would like to be but the move to Nevada has been great for a steady job. Our home is full of love and children and a happy marriage. Most of all it is a christian home like I was raised in.

First Snowfall

Well it came overnight " SNOW "

There's something about that first snowfall that is so fun and so pretty.

I must say the children at our home our very happy. We got about 6 inches overnight but the mountains got about 3ft of snow. So glad it stayed up there.

The girls wanted to go play in it so I snapped a few pictures.

Have fun kids cause it is still snowing and supposed to the rest of Today.

Thankful ~ Day 21

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 21 ~ I'm thankful through sadness that I have felt , I can find joy in those same things. My parents taught me that everything that God gives us Good or Bad there is always joy. When I was younger it was hard to understand but things I have walked through I can see it all now.

Wonderful Surprise

Tonight I logged on Facebook to find I was tagged in a picture.

Here my sweet and wonderful friend Malinda had sketched a picture of the kids. She did a awesome and amazing job. I love it. I have never met her face to face but she to has lost a child. Such a wonderful lady.

The one thing that is neat about this picture is of course she did it herself but two all the pictures of the kids she used were each of them alone. She had told me she would like to do some pictures of the kids but I had no idea it would be this.

I just had to share this. I will always treasure this.

Happy Birthday + Prayer Request

To my nephew Blake McCune.

Gosh the time has went by so fast. I can still remember that little boy who was only 18 months when your Dad , Jeff started dating my sister Colleen. Your favorite show was Barney and you were just so cute. I remember you in your little tux at the wedding when you were 3 yrs old.

Now look at you all grown up and almost an adult. Where did the time all go.
I'm proud of you so involved in the church youth group and the puppet ministry. Also for hearing your Dad the day of the accident and getting help. Also a Big Congrats on getting your license recently.

Happy Birthday !!!!!!!!! Hope your day brings you many wonderful blessings.



This morning I talked to my sister and she asked me to please pray for Blake. He has a serious staff infection right now. He is going to wrestle this year and they think it came from the mat or maybe he didn't take a shower soon enough after practice. He is on meds. So please keep this guy in your prayers that he heals fast and soon.

Thankful ~ Day 20

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 20 ~ I'm thankful that I like to smile. I'm always pretty happy. I can always remember my Dad was a pretty happy person all the time no matter what. It takes a lot to make me upset. A friend of mine made me this tag. I try to do this always. I was voted my Senior year in school the most happiest girl :)

Turkey Trot

Today was the school's Turkey Trot

It's only for the 3rd , 4th and 5th graders.

They have all the girls from each class run and then the boys. They giveaway a Turkey to the first place winner in each grade. For second place they giveaway a pumpkin pie. Boys and Girls seperate for Turkeys and Pies.

Well Thaniqua is in 3rd grade and she placed 4th.

Ridge is in the 4th grade and he placed 15th.

I was proud of both of them. It was very very windy today and chilly.

So Yay for the Turkey Trotter's just watch out there is always next yr.

Thankful ~ Day 19

30 Days of Thankfulness

Day 19 ~ I'm thankful for the simple things in life. A smile , A hug , A kiss , and so on. These are the best things that all the money in the world can't buy , such wonderful blessings.

A Special Card

Today was Parent Involvement Day at my Children's school.

Look what Thaniqua brought home for me.




I do a lot of stuff at home for her class , like bake things or get items they need for a party , grade papers or work in the garden. Whatever I can do to help out from home since Carly is still young and I can't go into class to help out. I enjoy it so much. I find time in the busy days I have just being a stay at home mom.

This card was just so precious and it just makes everything I do so worth it card or not.

I do things for Ridge and Jennifer's classes too. I tell there teachers just give me a call I will find a way to help out.