December 28 , 2011
I have a little something special with the number 28. It seems like I can have good or bad things on that number.
It wasn't a special day but Thaniqua & I had run to Walmart to get groceries. We were almost done & I decided I need to go to the bathroom. No big deal but just so I don't go into to much info , I haven't had a period for over a year. I'm getting older and so I just thought maybe it was my body quitting on it's own. My Dr told me as long as I felt fine I should be ok. I don't have my yearly til Spring.
Well I was bleeding but not a lot. So we finished shopping came home & it only got worse. I called my Mom even though she was over 2000 miles away I wanted to ask her what she thought.
That evening it was worse so I went to be checked out. I found out something I didn't want to hear. I lost a child another baby. I wondered how this could happen no period but somehow it had. I had my first child Ridge & had no signs of being pregnant. A lot of people still find it hard to believe but it happened. Anyway I decided I was in shock to much & I didn't feel like writing about it until now.
A week ago we said Goodbye to our little Rosebud. They say I was only 8 wks or so & I miscarried. I'm better but mentally I'm still trying to cope w / another loss. It hurts , It is raw & still so hard to believe. We told the children & they are doing ok.
I still wonder Why ????
Wish I could have stopped it but God knows those answers so I have to trust him. It's hard this life at times so unfair but then again there will be a day we will all be together as a family.
My cousin emailed me this picture from Florida the same day this happened. I think it didn't just happen maybe she knew I needed something peaceful to look at. She knows how much I love things like this.
Rosebud ~ December 28 , 2011
I will look forward to the day I can meet you Sweet Baby
I know a lot of you never thought this would be what I would post about but even though I know God is Good & we are blessed yet broken at the same time.