Last night I was watching my favorite soap " The Young and The Restless " on Soapnet. I'm sorry but I watch Nick Jr all day not complaining Carly just learns so much from that channel and I prolly wouldn't get other things done without it. Lol.
Anyway a couple on there just got married plus found out that she was pregnant. I watched it the other night when she found out she was. The excitment and joy , I could almost feel it. Then Tuesday nite she had cramping , so last nite she found out went to her OB and did the ultrasound only to find out there was no heartbeat. She went home and D & C will happen today on the show. They went home and he asked her if there was anything he could get her. She said just hold me. I know that he was very much excited for this child to but trying not to let his feelings show. Later in the show she asked him if he was ok ??? He said Yes of course. She told him it's ok if you want to cry , be sad , scream , yell. A tear ran down his cheek.
It was so emotional for me and my hubby , he was on the computer in the same room. We looked at each other. It brought back those memories of what we shared when we lost. I know that before I lost I would not have watched that all that close to what they said to each other. One thing my husband said was it's awesome she told him that it was ok to show feelings. It's still hard for me to remember what I said ???? I wonder if he felt like I cared ???? I know it was hard Ridge was almost 6yrs old and he knew I went to the hospital cause something was wrong with the baby. I remember those brown eyes looking at me asking if the baby was ok ????? I remember holding him close and trying to explain it to him but knowing he didn't really understand and I was so lost myself.
Today it's something how I look at something like that. A soap opera and a pregnancy. I will give that show a lot of credit they made sure to bring the husband's grief into it. Not just the wife and the D & C. I know it brings back painful memories but it also is great to see that they are in one sense helping someone that may be going through something like that.
I'm a wife to a very special man ~ Paul , who is just Awesome. I'm a Mommy to four wonderful , amazing children on Earth Ridge , Thaniqua , Jennifer and our Little Rainbow Baby Carly. I have four children in Heaven Riley , Little Muffin & Sweet Pea , Rosebud who I miss but know that One day we will be together. Also I have three step-children which are all in there 20's.