Sad News from My Hometown

This is a very sad story. I don't like to read or post something like this but I would like to ask that you pray for the six children left behind. This is the town Wooster , Ohio that I moved from before moving to Nevada. It's usually a quiet town not a lot going on.

I pray that the children can all stay together. I know a lot of times children have to be split up. I pray that something good comes out of this. I know after talking to my Mom today it is a big shock to everyone.

Praying for all the children and the families and friends that knew them. Praying for the community that everyone will come together for these children.

The-Daily-Record.com - Couple dead after apparent murder-suicide Female found in home's bathroom; six children in Children Services custody

Thank you for reading this.

Six Word Saturday

Here is how it works using six words , describe your life ( or something ) in a phrase.

Being a Mom , A Lifetime Commitment

So thankful that God has blessed me with the chance to be a Mother. Some days are tougher than others but ya know ............ I wouldn't trade it for the world.

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Emotional Friday

Just having a emotional day.

This morning when I got up with Paul at 4 am I was flipping through the channels. My favorite movie well one of them City of Angels was just ending up. I just love that song by the Goo Goo Dolls "IRIS". So by the time Paul came out to eat breakfast I was in tears makin his sandwich. Just so much going on lately and I'm trying to deal with it and be happy.

" IRIS " by the GOO GOO DOLLS


And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

So I have been missing my babies in heaven. I guess that wave of grief has come back like it does every now and then. So I'm just gonna listen to my music today and play with my Little Carly , go get my kids at school later. Be so thankful for what God has blessed me with.

15 Months

Today Carly is 15 months old.

Where has all the time gone ?????? So fast .......

Here are some things about her .........

There is not to much she won't eat. She loves to try new things.

She loves Nick Jr and especially The Fresh Beat Band and Dora.

She loves to dance. So cute when I see her when she doesn't know I'm watching.

She is starting to say more words. She can say Ridge , Read it , Baby , Bye Bye , Thank - you and lots more.

She loves books and being read too.

She loves to climb and can now get on our sofa.

Still doesn't really nap but sleeps all night.

She tries to run.

She loves to play outside and doesn't mind getting dirty.

She loves to see her brother and sister's come home from school everyday. The look in her eyes is priceless.

I just can't believe how big she is already !!

Happy 15 months Carly !!!!! We all love you so much.

Here is a picture of Carly and Jennifer !!!

Sign Language

Yesterday while walking home from school , Marie my oldest daughter was showing me that she learned how to do sign language. She could sign all the letters in her name and all of ours too. It was so neat and the best part about it she wants to join the afterschool club to learn how to sign and help with the special needs kids that attend school there. Sometimes they like to have other students help them in there classrooms. I think that is so Awesome and it's great that she wants to do this on her own. She told me that she has decided already that she wants to sign the song " Twinkle Twinkle Little Star " by Jewel, for the school spring Talent show. She loves that song and she plays it often. She also told me that she is going to dedicate it to all the parents that have lost children of any age.

Paul and I couldn't be more proud of her. I'm also glad the school offers this to children. I know the younger you learn things like this the easier it is. Marie also wants to be a teacher someday so that will come in handy.

Wordless Wednesday - My Son

Yesterday

Yesterday I got this email from a friend. It made me stop and think about my Monday. The first chance I really had to get on here was late last evening.



Yesterday I tried to do something nice. Yeah me the terrible Step-mom , LOl. Well so I have heard the past week that's what I am. Jared is staying here for right now and of course things haven't been too good but I am trying very hard. He isn't allowed to be here when we aren't home just because he needs to gain his trust back with us. Not because we want to be mean.

Anyway the laptop we got Jared last spring not even 6 months ago he has major problems with it. Well since it is in our name hen we bought it I told Jared after I took the kids to school we would take it out to Best Buy. So he got up and got ready. I wasn't sure how things would go with just Carly , Jared & I. I remembered how we are to be like Jesus. So I was just going to be me and kill him with kindness. Well they checked out the laptop and of course a powerful worm and some other things. It is going to cost almost $300 dollars to fix it. I explained to him that this is why he needs to get a job. We don't have the money to fix it right now. So after lunch and back home I offered to do what I could but I have some issues right now with me so I need to be careful no getting upset. I told him I know finding work is tough but you gotta keep trying. I think I might have gotten through to him. For some reason he does listen to me because when I came back from taking the gang to school he was working on paperwork and so on.

So back to the little email I got yesterday I may not be the most important person and not your real Mom but I do care about you Jared just like my own.

Hoping everyone has a great day cause I'm sure gonna try.

Happy Birthday BFF

Today I would like to take the time to wish my very Best Friend Vickie Bevington a Happy Birthday !!!!!

We have been friends forever , grew up together , lived right next door to one another. Even though our lives have taken a lot of turns on our road through life. I know I can always count on my friend to be there no matter what. Where I grew up in Ohio her parents still live next to my Mom. So since I live so far away now I know Vickie talks to my Mom from time to time.

So Happy Birthday Vickie !!!

We sure have made lots of memories together. I miss ya and I hope you have a wonderful day !!

A Couple Birthday Wishes to Heaven

Today I'm remembering my Grandma Zollars. Today is her birthday !!! She would be 106 yrs old but she passed away 11 yrs ago. I know she is in Heaven prolly having a wonderful day. I just wanta say Grandma I love you so much and I cherish all the times we spent together. I know one day we will be together again. Just know I'm excited to see you again !!!!







Also today is a blog friend of mine her son's First Birthday in Heaven.

Happy 1st Birthday Bryston



Praying for a peaceful day for Jennifer and her husband as they remember there little boy.

{{HUGS}}

Six Word Saturday

Here is how it works using six words , describe your life ( or something ) in a phrase.

Another day in my wonderful life.

So thankful that God has blessed me with yet another day. Hoping that is a good one and if not I'm sure I will make it.

Have a Happy 6WS and a Awesome upcoming wk.

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So Glad It Is Friday

So very glad it is Friday !!!!

I'm so happy the first week of school is in and all went well.

It was so emotional for me this week. I'm not really sure WHY ??? So much....... I know I'm missing my angels that are in Heaven so much. It just hit me all of a sudden and I think a lot has to do that Jennifer is in school all day and I know I should have 3 kiddos here.

Plus myself has not been me. So I'm hoping next week is better.

Also My blog friend Celia gave birth to her Rainbow Baby this morning. A adorable son. I'm so happy for them and will be keeping them close to my heart and saying prayers for them. God is so good !!!

Hoping you have a wonderful Friday !!!

Thanks & A Update

First I would like to say thanx so much for the prayers for me. There is so much I would like to let you in on but I think I should wait to see how things turn out. I'm doing ok and have a good feeling about things. Having such wonderful friends really helps and of course God.

Also I wanted to update you on my Mom. She went to see the Heart specialist as my Mom calls her. Last week when I spoke w/my Mom she wanted no part of going. I told hey it won't hurt to see what they say. My brother & sister and I all feel that a lot of this might be brought on my the snakes that was in her home recently. My Mom was really scared by them and since then has not slept well. I can't say as I blame her. It would make me nervous to. She told the Dr what has been going on and she felt that looking at her medical records it could be possible. She is having a Echo done on Aug 4th. So I'll be praying things turn out great.

The other Awesome part of her appt was her Dr is from Guess where ???????????
Carson City , Nevada. Right where I live. She works in Wooster , Ohio and is part of the Cleveland Clinic. My Mom felt really good talking with her. She told her how she really misses me being so far away. The Dr also said she really is homesick for seeing home in Nevada. So now my Mom likes going to the Dr. It's really nice how God lets some things work out.

So once again thanx for just being you and caring. I pray everything works out for Mom and me.

Wednesday's Walk - My Campground Job

It's Wednesday's Walk .........

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I haven't done this for a few wks but now that my children the older 3 are back to school , I have a little more free time.

This wk I'm going back in time to my job I started right after graduating from High School. It was at the Assemblies of God Church Camp in Big Prairie, Ohio. I grew up right across the road from there all my life. I loved the summer's camp all the time and we could sit outside and listen to there meetings in our yard. Well I got a job there as cleaning rooms after each camp. It was a lot of fun always meeting a lot of really neat people. I worked there from 1982 - 1988. I did a lot of things there and they were open almost yr round. I was a lifeguard and actually got the chance to save a little girl. I always wondered if when I had to I could do it and I did. One really neat thing was I have stayed in contact with that girl ever since. It's just one of those neat things. I ran the snack bar for two summers and also helped order food for the camp. I even learned how to do the Goverment Free Milk program which was interesting. I started helping the head cook Norma out. I was taught how to prepare a lot of food at one time. One day Norma was very sick and my sister was working there at the time we cooked a meal for about 350 people and it was awesome. The things I learned to do there was amazing.

But the greatest thing of all was the summers and to see the power of God work in so many people. I loved the 2 wks of Kids Kamp. All those little children learning about the Lord. Since I worked there for a few yrs I watched some of them grow up.

I ended up having to leave there because I needed health insurance and to make more money. I remember I only made $ 150 dollars a wk but I also lived at the campground rent free and could eat there. But the benfits of seeing the Lord work were beyond that. I have stayed in contact with a lot of people from there since. The campground is no longer there. They sold it and moved it to a more central location in the state of Ohio. Someday I would like to go to the new one and see all the changes. I will never forget all those wonderful memories and things I learned at that job that started out just cleaning a dorm room after camp.

Dear God

I'm Happy

I'm Sad

I'm Upset

I'm Worried

I'm Loving

Dear God

Here lately i just don't know what is up. I just wanta be me. I want to be that loving Mommy and Wife that I know is still here , filled w/ always a smile and so much fun. I just wanta be okay about things I have to walk through. I know God you love me and there is nothing I can't do without you. It's hard sometimes to Trust and know that something good comes out of everything. So I'm just holding on to the fact that I have you as my Rock when all else fails. Just please know that it's sometimes hard for me once again to go through this. I'm going to try really hard when that part of me wants to just run so far away. I can be strong for so many but now when I want to I sometimes find it hard too.

I Love You God and trying so hard to trust in you.

First Day of School

Well everyone made it through the first day of school. It was great !!!!

Here is a picture I snapped when we dropped them off yesterday morning. The sun was shining so bright , sorta got in there eyes, sorry kids.



Ridge of course had a blast. He has a teacher that is new to the school this yr. I haven't got to meet her yet but Ridge told me she is pretty. I talked to one of Ridge's friends Mom , both boys are in the same class again this yr. she told me she has spoke with her and she is really nice. So I'm excited to meet her. I'm sure Ridge will have no problems. He loves school so much.

Marie had fun her BFF is in her class. She has Ridge's teacher from last year. I just love her so much. Great christian lady & friend. Marie was a little nervous and I told her things would be fine before she left for school. Well they take a minute to reflect on something special or quiet time before they start there day. Sorta like prayer time but because of reasons in school Mrs Browning can't say that. Well after there minute Guess what appeared on Marie's desk ????????

A ladybug....... How Awesome is that. She was so excited just like God gave her a sign things would be great for the coming year. I just love things like that. Her teacher thought it was just so neat.

Jennifer was mixed emotions the start of a full day at school. Things went great and her teachers had Ridge and Marie for the First grade too. I really like them both and they teach wonderful.

So overall it was a really good day !!! I was so glad to see them at 3pm and so was someone else Guess who ????? Little Miss Carly.
Yesterday was so quiet and we took her when we dropped them off at school , so she could see what they were doing. It was just so great to see that Happy look in her eyes and them too. Real love is priceless.

So that was our First day of school !!
We have Meet your teacher nite next wk July 29th so that will be lots of fun too.

Whatever

I'm going through so much right now that has to do with me. Change is good but I'm not sure I can do this. So I guess whatever the outcome ......

I won't stress to much , just be joyful because God is so Good throughout it all. All I can say right now is keep me in your prayers. God has a plan for me , I must just sit back and wait.

Happy Ice Cream Day

Do you know what today is ? ? ? ?

It's National Ice Cream Day !!!!!!!

Every third Sunday in July is.

In 1984 Ronald Reagan designated the month of July as Ice Cream month. So get out today and eat some ice cream or eat some this month.

What is your favorite ice cream ??

I love Choc Chip Cookie Dough and Butter Pecan and sometimes just a simple dish of Vanilla. Really any Ice Cream but Strawberry only because I'm allergic to it.

Also just a random fact but most Ice Cream is sold on Sunday !!




Oh so YUMMY !!!!!!!



Have a great one and Happy Ice Cream Day !!!

Our Sunday

Well it's the last day of summer break for the kids and we are just hangin out at home. It's really HOT out too.

Tomorrow is Monday of course and it's just like the chalkboard says ......



Yesterday we went and got a few things we needed like Backpacks , some new clothes , water bottles ...

One thing that is really nice about the school is you don't have to buy paper , crayons and all that. They send a note home of supplies that they could use but if you can't afford it , it's ok. The list is things they will be using throughout the year. We usually still buy things to help others or I stockpile stuff at home.

How can the school afford to buy things for the kids like this ???

Well they have a ice cream social in Aug which is a great money maker. Then the Cow Plop brings in lots of money and there PTA is just Awesome. Plus a few places in town donate too. Also when your child enters 1st grade they are given a backpack with lots of items in it. It really is a nice idea.

So the kids are excited and sooooo ready. Jennifer goes to school all day so a BIG change for her and Mommy. I bet Carly will wonder what happened to everyone. It will be different for sure.

So tonite we are cooking out and just sorta making sure things are all go for tomorrow.

Have a great day !!!!

Marie and Mom Time

Yesterday I got to spend some private time as Jennifer calls it with my Marie. We walked to the school yesterday to meet her teacher. We already knew her since she got Ridge's teacher from last yr. Not all the teachers were doing this. The rest of the kids stayed home with Jared. It was from 12 -1 and I really didn't wanta take Carly out in the heat. I knew I wouldn't be gone that long. It was sorta neat that just Marie and I had sometime together. She is a big help with Carly at times when I need to get something else done. While we walked to school it was nice to just chit chat with her and giggle about silly things. So hard to believe she is going to be a 3rd grader. Seems like I just watched her start school. Then after we got to school we found out Marie and her BFF are in the same class. So that was really cool.

Then last nite I forgot we needed some milk so I asked Marie if she wanted to walk with me to the store. It isn't to far. We were going to take Carly but it was getting late and someone was fussy. I let Carly stay w/ Dad. Ridge and Jennifer were busy so Marie and I were off again. It was nice how it worked out. It wasn't really planned to spend time together but it was awesome anyway.

Six Word Saturday

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Cherish little moments , make days special.

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Update on Celia and Baby

I have a update on my friend Celia and her baby.

She is at home and on strict bedrest. Her contractions are 1-6 mins apart and bleeding has stopped. The Dr did say that if he sees her anytime, after another bleeding episode they will most likely take the baby.

Please keep Mommy and Baby in your prayers as well as there whole family.

Here is her blog button to her blog if you would like to go there to read more



Thank-you so much.

Prayers Needed Please

I have a prayer request for a blogging friend of mine Celia and her Rainbow Baby.

Please pray for baby Xander and his mommy, Celia tonight....Celia is 33 wks. and experiencing complications that may lead to an early delivery. Celia's son Noah went home to heaven last year. Please pray for this family tonight...for mommy and baby, especially!

Here is her blog button to her blog if you would like to go there to read more



Thank-you so much.

July 15th and Thoughts

Today I'm remembering a special friend of mine. My friend Becky and today is her birthday. We are the same age and we grew up together.

Happy Birthday Becky !!!!!!!



But there is also another reason I remember her today. 27 yrs ago Becky lost her Dad. He had cancer. I remember being over at her house when he was ill. I remember being there those last days he was alive. He wanted to be at home when it happened. He wanted to go when it was time no life support. He was a christian and he knew this life was just a journey until the place called Heaven was his last stop. I learned a lot from him w/ fighting cancer.

Then the day came the cancer took over. It was a tough battle. I can remember him always saying it's not goodbye but it's see ya later. A couple months after his passing I learned that my Father had cancer. I wondered how I would deal w/ the fact that the day could come as it did for Becky. I always felt so bad for her, she lost her Dad on her birthday. Well as I walked the road w/ my Dad almost the same thing happened. My Dad passed exactly one wk before my birthday. Too this day I feel God helped me deal with my own Father through my friend Becky. I will never forget July 15th. A wonderful man told me goodbye but also taught me a lot and I was able to deal with my own Father's death better.

So today while I'm remembering all of that I think of my children I lost to soon. Just know that even with all the going on of this life, there is never a moment you don't cross my mind. I know one day I will see you soon.

Our Chat

Our little talk with Jared went better than I thought. We just told him what we expected as parents. Told him the rules and asked him to come up with a plan in the next few days as to what he is going to try to do as far as a job , his life. We told him that if he couldn't do as we asked then he could not stay here. I think we are being fair. We offered to listen if he had a problem but also at the same time he needs to try very hard to get something going soon.

Paul and I have been very worried about Jared in the past few weeks. We remember a time when we thought we were doing things right or better yet knew it all. So we are just going to give it all to God and trust in him that things will turn around for him. We love him and only want the best for him. I'm just so glad he is safe right now so we'll leave the rest up to God and him to work out.

A Great Day

Wow , I'm still so happy and in such a great mood.

The power of prayer is wonderful.



This morning when I went to the school and signed those papers. I was just like on a cloud. I have been working hard on getting the kids back to there school. It was sorta funny , someone told me I should just let the way that it was decided go. I wasn't going to fight with them but I was going to give it one last shot. I had been to the school board but something told me to try one more time. I'm so glad I did. When I was in the office this morning I ran into Ridge's teacher from last yr and here she will be Marie's teacher this year. That's just so Awesome. I also found out when doing Jennifer's paperwork that she has the same teachers as Ridge and Marie had when they were in 1st grade. Who they had didn't really matter , just the fact that God had made it happen. The main thing is in the end it all worked out. This morning while I was getting ready to go to the school I thought of this verse.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

God is just so Good. Even though there are times I find it hard to just trust him , it's Awesome the way things work out sometimes.

So tonight is a lot for Paul and I. We have to sit down and try to work out something w/ Jared. He ended up coming back here today. Right now Paul and I have come up with a plan to try to help him as long as he will agree. It's just put a lot of stress on our marriage , our children here and so on. The best way to handle this is to sit down and Talk. I can remember one time when I was young my Father telling us that talking it out and praying to God is the only way to go. I also remember a saying that my Mom had in her dining room " the family that prays together stays together". So I'm in such a good mood I'm only going to think good thoughts for tonite. I think maybe Jared has learned a lesson and maybe tonite will make a difference this time.

So I'm praying for all of us tonite and that something good will come out of all of this. It's been such a great day and I'm so thankful to God for all that he has blessed us with.