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Friday, August 28, 2009

~ Dad I Miss You - 23 Years ~




Today is August 28, 2009

It's been 23 yrs ago today my Dad passed away. It's me your daughter and I miss you so much. The grief is still there, so much has changed for me. Wow I know you already know that I'm a Mommy and 2 of my angels are already with you. I even got marrried remember when I said I would never do that, LOL. I even moved away and what I dislike the most is I can't come visit your grave anymore. I loved to plant flowers at the gravesite & just go sit on that hill & watch the horses at the amish farm & enjoy the peaceful feeling. I just want you to know I still miss you so much. I was thinking the other day about when I went to the nursing home after you passed away & talked to the social worker. I just wanted to see if you were scared to leave us or if there was anything she could tell me. I remember how you just wanted people to smile :) I did find out a interesting thing from her & I would like to share it today. I couldn't go see my Dad cause I had to work a double at my job, so I wrote him a letter & mailed it to him. At the time I thought this was silly , the only time I wrote a letter was when I was staying at my Grandparents in the summer as a child. It was just a general letter nothing real exciting but the social worker told me that's all my Dad talked about was how I took the time to write him a letter being 21 yrs old. It's made me stop & think it's just the simple things in life that mean the most. I still have the letter today & I will treasure it forever cause it made my Dad so happy. :) Grief is tough cause there's always the anniversary of the death, person's birthday, holidays & just special family things it never goes away. So if there is one thing I learned from this is live for today , tomorrow may not be & yesterday is just a memory. I can remember even in the last days of my Dad's life he wanted to see no tears just be happy for one day I will see you again where there is no pain or suffering. It was hard to watch him go & days like today are tough but I know even though I can't go to the grave today My Dad knows how much I Love Him.

2 comments :

Holly said...

I'm sorry your dad can't be with you right now. I hope you have a wonderful day with all your memories of him. Some day you'll be together again!! I bet he's so proud of you. :)

Trennia said...

((((((HUGS))))))
lOTS OF HUGS FOR YOU MY FRIEND!

 
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