Today I'm so frustrated but then I have been for about a month now. Sometimes I just wish I could runaway from it all , but I can't. I know that wouldn't do any good. It's just a lot has been going on so I feel the need to write down the way I feel. Hoping no one minds. I'm still trying to get the kids back in there school. Paul is working the next 13 days straight and 10 hr days. A lot of this has to do w/my step-son if you remember a few months back. Well when we moved to our new apartment a couple months ago.
Jared did not move with us. He moved out which was good. It's been great to not have to worry about him and his moods and things he liked to do that we didn't approve of. Well then about a month after he moved out we found out where he was working was closing it's doors. He had one interview somewhere and doesn't have a job yet. So Paul has talked to him about maybe enlisting in the service. He could take some classes and have a roof over his head and food to eat and medical. Of course his options are not that. I know Paul won't let him live on the streets but he told him if he enlisted he could live here until he left. I know some of you might think why doesn't he try to work where his Dad does but Paul doesn't think he could handle it. They work a lot to. I'm not sure what will happen.
Jared has a plan of going backpacking across the USA. Which might be alright but he has no money and it just is making Dad and I worry. I was really upset w/him when he moved out because he didn't have all the money for his apartment so he pawned some of the kids game stuff. I prayed about it and I have tried to forget it ever happened.
I look at this problem and think it could happen to one of our children someday. I just don't think Jared is trying hard and Paul was hoping him being out on his own would make him stop and think about what is important. So I'm praying today and in the days to come for God to help Jared and us through this. I'm praying for no words to be said that will make things worse. It's just hard ...... but I know that God is always there for each and everyone of us.
So I'm trying to put on a simple smile and I know to well there could be worse things happen in our life. I also had a sweet friend on Facebook send me this little poster and it's so true.
Thanx so much for listening , I just needed to get it off my chest. I hope each and everyone of you have a great day.
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