Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Life ....... wishing it was simple

Today I'm so frustrated but then I have been for about a month now. Sometimes I just wish I could runaway from it all , but I can't. I know that wouldn't do any good. It's just a lot has been going on so I feel the need to write down the way I feel. Hoping no one minds. I'm still trying to get the kids back in there school. Paul is working the next 13 days straight and 10 hr days. A lot of this has to do w/my step-son if you remember a few months back. Well when we moved to our new apartment a couple months ago.

Jared did not move with us. He moved out which was good. It's been great to not have to worry about him and his moods and things he liked to do that we didn't approve of. Well then about a month after he moved out we found out where he was working was closing it's doors. He had one interview somewhere and doesn't have a job yet. So Paul has talked to him about maybe enlisting in the service. He could take some classes and have a roof over his head and food to eat and medical. Of course his options are not that. I know Paul won't let him live on the streets but he told him if he enlisted he could live here until he left. I know some of you might think why doesn't he try to work where his Dad does but Paul doesn't think he could handle it. They work a lot to. I'm not sure what will happen.

Jared has a plan of going backpacking across the USA. Which might be alright but he has no money and it just is making Dad and I worry. I was really upset w/him when he moved out because he didn't have all the money for his apartment so he pawned some of the kids game stuff. I prayed about it and I have tried to forget it ever happened.

I look at this problem and think it could happen to one of our children someday. I just don't think Jared is trying hard and Paul was hoping him being out on his own would make him stop and think about what is important. So I'm praying today and in the days to come for God to help Jared and us through this. I'm praying for no words to be said that will make things worse. It's just hard ...... but I know that God is always there for each and everyone of us.

So I'm trying to put on a simple smile and I know to well there could be worse things happen in our life. I also had a sweet friend on Facebook send me this little poster and it's so true.

Thanx so much for listening , I just needed to get it off my chest. I hope each and everyone of you have a great day.


Lilly's Mom (Desiree) said...

awww it'll all work out. :)

That corgi :) said...

(((Caroline))) I so understand what you are saying. It is hard to let these kids grow up and be on their own and learn to take responsibility. I think the service sounds like a wonderful option for Jared if he wants to do it, at least for just a few years; gets his education, makes good money, etc. It is very expensive to be out on their own these days (that's why our 21 y/o is here with us, LOL) but at the same time they got to learn independence and a work ethic. It is very frustrating, I totally understand and I also think it is hard since there is a wide age gap between the kids still at home and Jared at his age. Plus what a work schedule your husband has! that has to be exhausting!!!

best thing you can do is what you are already doing, praying about it.......


Trennia said...

God has away of working things out,you know how my hubby was treated for father's's a sad situation when kids think they know it all and we are just dumb parents!
praying for you all,I know it's hard.(((HUGS)))

Holly said...

I think enlisting would be good for him and I hope that he does that.

Just Breathe said...

I will be keeping you, your family and of course Jared in my prayers.

Sarita Boyette said...

Caroline, I will be praying for you and your family, esp. for your son to make wise choices. I hate to see you down in the dumps, so I'm sending lots of hugs and love!

Mr. Stupid said...

I am sure Jared will make all the right decisions. The saying on that poster was beautiful and very true.
I am your newest follower. Have a good day...:)

Karen said...

Life is never simple, is it? These "adult" children can really be a lot to handle. I have found as my children get older I am on my knees a whole lot more! Praying that things get better for you real soon!

(((Hugs))) and Blessings,

Jingle said...

hope that everything is better for you now.

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