Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Just some Thoughts .....

It's been a emotional week , Lots of happy tears and some sad.

I seen this image online last night when I was just messing around doing some thinking .......... It was just sorta fitting to where my mind was.

The last couple days have been a lot. Jennifer graduating from Kindergarten. Ridge getting many special awards yesterday. Which will be in a upcoming post. Not to leave Marie out but lots of good things have been said about our children. So I have been doing a lot of thinking ...... wondering ......... what things would have been like if I had my babies here instead of in Heaven.

A lot of these people here don't know me , they don't know I lost two children. I had comments when Jennifer graduated that Wow , you have a while before you do this again. I thought to myself it shouldn't have really been like this , should it ??? I sometimes sit and wonder from time to time thinking Wow I would really have my hands full, but I would have loved it. I don't dwell on there losses but from time to time it's right there. Grief looking at me.

Then I look at Carly and how fast she has done some new things lately and I think about how great our God is. I never want to forget my babies , not that we have but it's like the image says. A lot of times when I'm out walking or doing something that just makes me think of them. It's sad sometimes a holiday time or the anniversary date but then I think of how strong I have become.

I think of so much from time to time the good and the bad things I have walked through and I think of how strong it has made me. It makes me think of that verse in the Bible

Philippians 4:13 (New International Version)
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Memories are great and I'm so glad we have them no matter what they are. I know even though this week is a lot of emotion. We have made some great memories this week and I can't wait to see what God has in store for us next. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and children and all my wonderful friends in my life. God is so Good.

God Bless


Holly said...

I'm so thankful for memories.

April said...

Memories are definitely what drives people to move forward. What a blessed gift that we can hold onto those emotions/thoughts. Thinking about them often, will help those memories fresh in your mind.

Hugs Caroline!

Just Breathe said...


That corgi :) said...

I would imagine you would always wonder how life would be if you had your two other children with you, they are part of your live even though right now they aren't with you, but will be with you for all of eternity which is awesome too! we never understand why God allows this or that, but knowing he is in control and knowing we can always turn to him and rely on him is a blessing indeed!


Sarita Boyette said...

You have some wonderful memories, Caroline, but I know you will never forgot your babies.(((HUGS)))

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