It's been a emotional week , Lots of happy tears and some sad.
I seen this image online last night when I was just messing around doing some thinking .......... It was just sorta fitting to where my mind was.
The last couple days have been a lot. Jennifer graduating from Kindergarten. Ridge getting many special awards yesterday. Which will be in a upcoming post. Not to leave Marie out but lots of good things have been said about our children. So I have been doing a lot of thinking ...... wondering ......... what things would have been like if I had my babies here instead of in Heaven.
A lot of these people here don't know me , they don't know I lost two children. I had comments when Jennifer graduated that Wow , you have a while before you do this again. I thought to myself it shouldn't have really been like this , should it ??? I sometimes sit and wonder from time to time thinking Wow I would really have my hands full, but I would have loved it. I don't dwell on there losses but from time to time it's right there. Grief looking at me.
Then I look at Carly and how fast she has done some new things lately and I think about how great our God is. I never want to forget my babies , not that we have but it's like the image says. A lot of times when I'm out walking or doing something that just makes me think of them. It's sad sometimes a holiday time or the anniversary date but then I think of how strong I have become.
I think of so much from time to time the good and the bad things I have walked through and I think of how strong it has made me. It makes me think of that verse in the Bible
Philippians 4:13 (New International Version)
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Memories are great and I'm so glad we have them no matter what they are. I know even though this week is a lot of emotion. We have made some great memories this week and I can't wait to see what God has in store for us next. I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and children and all my wonderful friends in my life. God is so Good.
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