This morning as I sit here while Carly is taking a short nap I still have last Friday on my mind. I think maybe if I write down what I feel maybe I will feel better. So here goes.........
I know being a BLM is difficult. I never know what to say when this question pops up. I know a lot of my BLM friends have blogged about this same issue.
Last Friday I had to run over to Walgreens to pick up a couple things. There was a lady at the check out who I have seen before and she seems really nice. It was nice out a bit windy that day and she said I just have to tell you your a wonderful Mom. I sorta looked at her funny & said Thank you. She went on to say how I see you walk everyday to get the children from school as long as the weather is great. I told her I enjoy walking it gets Carly & I out of the house. Then comes the question ????? Are those all your children ???? Before I knew it I already said it Yes they are all mine. She went on to say I don't see how you do and they cost a lot of money. I told her God provides. She smiled and agreed. She left & so did I. On the way home I thought about what she said about me being a good Mom & how that made me smile. Then I thought about how I left my other kids out that live in Heaven. What a Mom am I ??? Someone thought I was terrific cause I care & am always there for my kids. I felt bad inside. I know they are there and I love them. I just never know what someone is going to say & I guess that's the part I don't wanta have to deal with. I have had to deal with that before and sometimes it's not real pretty. Well I feel better now. So my little vent is over.
Riley , Little Muffin & Sweet Pea ,
Mommy loves you more than you know. I wish so many times more than you know that you all were here with us. I wish when I went to the store I could buy you something. I could go get you at school. I wish we could go on a trip together. I would be happy just to hear you in our home. I know One wonderful day we will be able to do all that as a family in Heaven. I just wish it was now. Just know your never forgotten , always in our hearts. XXXOOO
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