Last night , I was sad cause a show that started on the CW channel called " Life Unexpected " was ending tonight for good. I'm not a Big TV person. I like to watch Headline news , TLC and yes I watch soapnet a little in the evening after kids go to bed. Nick Jr is on the most Carly's favorite. Anyway it was on for two hrs. I was crosstitching and kids had went to bed. Hubby was on the computer in the living room. One of the main characters is pregnant. Well she went for her ultrasound and what happened ????????????? No Heartbeat.
I thought I was gonna be sick. My Hubby asked me you ok ? I just sat there so much going through my head. So much all over again. Trying to hide the tears all over again. I could see the hurt in my hubby's face too. The lady didn't deal with it real well , tried to just hide her real feelings. So needless to say I couldn't sleep real well after that just all that pain in two words. " No Heartbeat ". I cried , I miss my children so much it will never end , not until I get to Heaven and I'm so ready. I would leave right now if only it was time. Until then I will trust in God to help me everyday even though some days are so difficult.
4 years, 3 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days.
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