Thursday, January 20, 2011

Busy Week & Feelings

It's been a busy week and I'm glad tomorrow is Friday. I have got to spend a lot of time with my precious children wouldn't trade that for the world. We have had lunch together one on one everyday this week. Today is Ridge's turn , I'm excited since he is my oldest and it seems like we don't get to much alone time. He is growing up and having a birthday soon. Anyway I'm glad the school has done this it's nice to get to go and do this. I'm also thankful to God that I can be a stay at home Mom and be able to attend.

Tomorrow I won't be eating lunch with anyone tomorrow is second quarter awards morning. Of course this gang is getting a bunch again. I'm so proud of them. This leads me into wanting to share some feelings with you.

I recently lost as all of you know another precious life on Jan 6 , 2011. I didn't post it to everyone on Facebook because some people think it's wrong for me to say on my status something about the children that are not here. At the same time I had two people say how can I be happy and post good things about my children on earth after maybe the day before be having a tough one as missing my children that are in Heaven. I just want to share that I love all my children and just like tomorrow going to the awards thing at school it's a happy time but yet my heart hurts thinking of the children that I will never see walk forward in this life and get a award like them. Days like tomorrow are bittersweet but I have that peace knowing ONE DAY I will see those children and be able to share in that joy like here on earth. I hope that made some sense. I love all my kids and I feel God as had me being busy with all the others to help me in my latest loss. It doesn't stop the hurt but it helps. So no matter if I'm so joyful it doesn't mean I don't love or not think of those children in Heaven any less.

I know no one on here has said anything like that but I wanted to just write my feelings out and maybe feel better. Thanx to all of you again for all the kind words . Also for being there for me.


Trennia said...

So sorry Caroline that you have to explain yourself.
I know how you feel.
Congrats to all your children doing so well at school!

~Sandy said...


stitchndeb said...

I think everybody has ups and downs, even if it's not about losing a child. Don't let them get to you. ~Debbie

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Those lunches were such a nice blessing for you and a great idea that the school offered. In answer to the comments you received let me tell you this: My dear friend in Chicago, almost 11 years ago, buried her 12 year old son. As you can imagine it was very sad. She decided that she did not want to have a luncheon following the service. She said that she could not have a party after burying her son. Well her brother and sister decided to do the luncheon and while we were there you could hear her laughing when stories were shared about him. In the most tragic moment of her life she found laughter and was thankful that they had the luncheon. We can be sad and joyful at the same time.

Jingle said...

take good care.
you rock.

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