Seems like this is all I wanted to do today ...........
Not sure Why ???????
Just dealing with some feelings
or a case of Grief .........
I could cry at the drop of a hat today but I did feel better. It was just Carly and I this afternoon. I decided to try to change our living room around a little. I don't like things the same way all the time.
I was just thinking about how there should be two more children at our home. I miss those kids I never got to meet. I wonder what they would have looked like or who they might be taking after. I have been watching Carly do so much the last couple weeks and think of how this is the first time I have watched a child grow and do things since I lost my babies. I look at things so different and maybe what I thought was important isn't anymore. I feel better I sat and prayed this afternoon and Carly was watching Dora not really knowing that Mommy was feeling blue.
I pulled things together and the rest of the gang came home from school.
Fixed supper and then it was off to Ridge's Science Fair tonight. Ridge got second place in his class. We were so proud of him and I cried again but this time they were Happy Ones and I can deal with those.
4 years, 3 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days.
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