Feelings & I Miss You

This morning as I was thinking of my sweet friend that lost her child yesterday & saying prayers for her this morning , I looked at the picture of our butterfly. It's so beautiful , so calming at times but then ..........

there are moments I wish I had more than the butterfly to look at it. I'm sorry it hurts & not a day passes that I don't think of them all four of my sweet babies in Heaven.

Its just been birthday season at our home w/ one to go this month. It makes me stop & think a lot of how different things should be. I wonder what my kids look like ?? I know for sure there were two boys & Ridge always wanted a brother. I feel like my body robbed him of that. I wanted all of them , we all did. It just isn't fair some days.

Oh Mommy misses them all of them. I will never stop until Heaven. While I have days that are worse then others I remember this favorite verse of mine.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

Even though today I'm so emotional thinking of a friend & remembering , I'm so blessed we all are but ............