Tonight I took a walk , just as the sun was going down over the mountain.
Beautiful moment , I was alone no children or hubby just me. It's been emotional this week for me.
It's one of those weeks where something should have been happening for us. A new life , the baby I miscarried in Dec would probably have came one day this week. It's raw sometimes just to think what could have been or what should be happening ???
Not fair this life but God has plans so , I'm gonna trust him like I do. It's tough sometimes but I'm stronger because I have walked this journey. I have had some awesome highs & then some tragic lows. I'm still here loving & counting my blessings. I'm still thanking God for everything he has blessed me with & seen me through.
So tonight as I go to bed I thank him for this life. I shed some tears tonight something I needed to do & as I looked at the mountain the sunset , the darkness I remembered No matter what God is always there for me & you.
So in the morning I'm going to be that Mom that gets up & is so very proud of my children on earth. Thaniqua made the leadership group & has school just tomorrow. I'm blessed so blessed even though I hurt. I love my children in Heaven sometimes I don't always mention them but I'm so very thankful I was given the chance to be a Mother.
4 years, 3 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days.
10 years ago
5 comments :
Beautiful post.I love you Caroline and I wish I was there to give you a (((hug))) and talk...every milestone hits like a ton of bricks...But praise the Lord that someday those bricks will be lifted and our hearts will be mended.
(((Caroline))) It is always encouraging to see even in your sadness and grief, you still praise God and trust in him. I am sorry for your losses; I know you love all of your children so very much!
betty
((HUGS)) I love what Betty said. I was thinking the same thing.
I have seen my mom with hurt and pain and needing time alone herself we all exprienced hurt but nothing like momma's do. Many(((hugs))) to you!
sending you lots of love and hugs
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