* I'm Sad *

I'm sad

I'm somewhat stressed

I really don't like this feeling But who does ......

Friday started out to be such a good day. It was Nevada Day and No School !!!

The weather was nice about 75 and sunny, earlier in the week it was supposed to be cold. So I had told the kids we may not go Trick or Treating cause I didn't wanta have Carly out in the cold weather just to get some candy. I told the kids if we didn't go I would make it up to them. But then again it was a nice night well somewhat .......

I got a phone call from my little sister well I should say my only sister. I could tell from talking to her something was wrong.

Our neighbor that lives across the road from my Mom had a stroke a couple wks ago and wasn't doing well. She is a very nice lady and I used to work for them. They had ran a church camp for many yrs. I liked working there and while I was there they lost there daughter in a terrible car accident. She was only 18 and the same age as my sister. I watched this sweet lady go through so much losing her youngest daughter and then not to be here at all when the accident happened. She has older children that live in Florida and was visiting at the time. It was a terrible time for her and her husband but then again God carried them through it.

Anyway she is not expected to make it to much longer. She doesn't really know anyone but my sister and my Mom were going to try to see her anyway. I wish so bad I could be home but I can't run home everytime something happens. I would in a minute if it was my family. At the same time I'm just sad I can't see her one more time before that something happens like Death.

Not more than a hr after I talked to my Mom and Sister a friend of one of my friends I used to work with called me. It's not anything that doesn't happen but her voice didn't sound right to me. She called to tell me that my friend had lost her baby to crib death. Her baby was only 2 months old. I'm sad and now I really wish I didn't live in Nevada. Once again there is that terrible word again Death.

I didn't write this to feel sorry for me that I live so far away from people I love but it just makes me feel so sad that I can't attend anything. I know that no one likes death but you know either way it is so hard to swallow the waiting part when you know someone is going soon. Or the unexpected and sudden taken away. I'm praying so hard about all these friends of mine and just know that God will carry us all though times like these.

I found this today while going thru some images on the computer and thought it fit perfectly. I know with God and trusting him he will always carry us through whatever happens in our life. So I'm gonna try not be sad but sometimes it's tough.