December 28 2011

December 28 , 2011

I have a little something special with the number 28. It seems like I can have good or bad things on that number.

It wasn't a special day but Thaniqua & I had run to Walmart to get groceries. We were almost done & I decided I need to go to the bathroom. No big deal but just so I don't go into to much info , I haven't had a period for over a year. I'm getting older and so I just thought maybe it was my body quitting on it's own. My Dr told me as long as I felt fine I should be ok. I don't have my yearly til Spring.

Well I was bleeding but not a lot. So we finished shopping came home & it only got worse. I called my Mom even though she was over 2000 miles away I wanted to ask her what she thought.

That evening it was worse so I went to be checked out. I found out something I didn't want to hear. I lost a child another baby. I wondered how this could happen no period but somehow it had. I had my first child Ridge & had no signs of being pregnant. A lot of people still find it hard to believe but it happened. Anyway I decided I was in shock to much & I didn't feel like writing about it until now.

A week ago we said Goodbye to our little Rosebud. They say I was only 8 wks or so & I miscarried. I'm better but mentally I'm still trying to cope w / another loss. It hurts , It is raw & still so hard to believe. We told the children & they are doing ok.

I still wonder Why ????

Wish I could have stopped it but God knows those answers so I have to trust him. It's hard this life at times so unfair but then again there will be a day we will all be together as a family.

My cousin emailed me this picture from Florida the same day this happened. I think it didn't just happen maybe she knew I needed something peaceful to look at. She knows how much I love things like this.

Rosebud ~ December 28 , 2011

I will look forward to the day I can meet you Sweet Baby

Love you

Mommy

I know a lot of you never thought this would be what I would post about but even though I know God is Good & we are blessed yet broken at the same time.

If you are friends with me on Facebook I only ask that you don't say anything on there . Just not ready for all the public & since sometimes a lot of drama on there. Thank you so much.

My Late Recap of 2011

This is a recap of a few of the things that happened over the past year 2011.

Some really happy , some really sad but together with God we always came out on top.

The start of the year was quite on a sad note. I miscarried a son at 12 wks on Jan 6 , 2011. It was very hard and we miss our Sweet pea very day. We also know that we will see him again when that wonderful day comes & we all go to Heaven to live forever.

Thaniqua's Science Fair project won 1st place. So exciting & what a honor as she won at the Science fair at the college in town then went on to state & placed third.

Yay Thaniqua !!!!!!!!

We spent lots of time working in the school garden. We enjoyed every minute of it.

Ridge , our wonderful , awesome & amazing son that played the part of a girl in the school play.

Saying goodbye to two high school teens that drown in a accident in the early Spring.

Jennifer at the Spring carnival.

Sister's ~ Fun times

Carly getting so big ~ Our precious Rainbow.

Carly's first time on a big swing alone.

Carly & Daddy at the Spanish neighbor's Birthday party.

Jennifer's backpack after four boys from school kicked it in a case of bullying.

It was a year filled with joy & heartache but I do have one more thing but going to save it for tomorrow as I feel it needs it's own post.
Goodnight for now.

My Word of the Year 2012

My first post of the New Year. I have been busy and still can't believe it is 2012. I'm glad for fresh starts , lots of new things to look forward too.

I'm hoping that the New Year is going good for everyone so far.

I have never done this before but I have picked a word for the year 2012 & it is ....

" OVERCOME "

To overcome is to prevail in spite of adversity, to successfully solve a problem or defeat an opponent, or to be consumed with something. (verb)
An example of overcome is when you are born in great poverty but become a millionaire.
An example of overcome is when you are wrongly imprisoned and you overpower the guards and escape.
An example of overcome is when you are consumed with happiness.



I am still working on my end of year post should be done tomorrow , I hope.

Happy New Year !!!!!!

Five Minute Friday ~ Open

I found this blog hop & thought I would join in. Sometimes it seems like all I have is Five minutes.

Five minutes to just write, and not worry if it’s just right or not. Kind of like how the rest of my life is at the moment.

Want to join me?

1. Write for only five minutes.
2. Link up by clicking on the button.
3. Go leave some comment love for the five minutes
who linked up before you.

It’s great , give it a try and see. Here is the topic ~ OPEN

GO .......

Open to me is new ways or things. I'm a pretty open person about anything. I didn't used to be.

I'm proud to say that I feel I have a Open relationship with my children. Even though they are young I want them to feel like there is nothing that we can't talk about or deal with. Just yesterday Jennifer came to me w / a off the wall question & we both handled it well.

I also like the fact that my children are Open about being a Christian. This world is tough & it makes me happy to see them not be afraid to share w/ others there feelings on this.

Open can have so many meanings & I want to Open the new year 2012 w/ so many good things plus knowing there will be sad times with Open arms.


STOP

My five minutes for today.
OK, your turn – show me what you’ve got.

Project 365 - Day 363

Tonight when I came out of the store from grocery shopping the sky was beautiful.

Santa Gives Back - Christmas 2011

This is a video of the Christmas play the girls were in at our church. It's 29 minutes long but really cute.
Thaniqua & Jennifer did a good job.
Just thought I would share this.

GSWC from Handlebar Studios on Vimeo.