Sunday, January 27, 2013

Walking with You ~ Steps Back into Life ~ Week 3

Welcome to Week 3 of Walking With You Share about your first steps back into life. What helped you survive in the world outside as you took those first tender steps? Are there still tender areas for you today, living in a world that doesn’t embrace or understand the loss of a baby/child? How do you cope with those struggles? What advice would you offer those new to this walk to encourage and bring hope? How has this changed for you from the beginning? If you are in early grief, what do you fear/struggle with as you try to navigate a new normal….life without your baby?

 It was so hard , I really didn't know what to say to anyone. So many people brushed off miscarriages like they were not really any life at all. I called my Mom after I was home from the hospital. She supported me & so did of course my husband. I had a wonderful friend that was understanding. I was thankful I had living children a 5 , 3 & 1 year old they kept me with a reason to smile everyday & get up & breathe.

 As I said in my last post I was thankful I had God even though I didn't understand why me ??? I prayed & always gave the new day the best shot I could. I returned to work after being off a week my boss was wonderful. He had no children but understood because his wife could not have children. I think he talked to everyone before I returned but there was still those looks , people whispering but I somehow made it.

 I'm usually a happy person , always joking having a good time at whatever. This has changed me & with every loss that happened after the first I was different. Today I'm different I hold my kids tighter , I love life more but I'm still thankful that God was always there. I know times I was mad & cried out WHY ME GOD ????

 I handle the struggle of the world by talking about my children all of my children when the time is right so I'm not hurt. My children freely talk about our losses & it helps all of us. They hurt to , I hurt , my husband hurts but keeping feelings in is wrong to & painful.

 Always remember talk out feelings & if you have no one to listen God will always be there he loves YOU always. I do have one thing to say as I close I think as each step I take or new day passes I'm closer to life with them in Heaven.

 I love this verse also my favorite about Heaven Revelation 21:4 New International Version (NIV) 4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

 I'm also thankful for the BLM's I have met through blogging & on Facebook my life is forever changed but I know I am not alone in this life. Everyone of you that I have a special place in my heart & your children. I'm also very thankful for all the books I have read with Holly Haas , feelings that I was able to feel & for this wonderful Walking with You group.



That corgi :) said...

That is such a comforting verse you quoted here, Caroline. It is so neat to know in heaven there will be no more tears indeed!

I think you gave great advice to talk about it, even if you "just" talk to God because he is always listening.

I think it is a good community on Blogger with BLMs; I know that must help a bit.


Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Love you Caroline! And, I'm so grateful for my online friends, too. Grateful to have "girls who get it" when the world often doesn't. I'm so glad your children know they can let their feelings out. That is so important. I find kids are often better at expressing some of the difficult things than adults.

Love that verse in Revelation, too. What a glorious day it will be when He takes away all the tears forever!!

Kayla Yow said...

It is such a shame that people really do not accept miscarriages as loss of life. But, we know that God creates each and every one of us. Your post was beautiful and oh so true! Thank you for sharing, Caroline!

Jennifer Ross said...

Yes, we always have God, when no one else will listen... beautiful Caroline...

I am beyond thankful for this whole community of ladies! :)

Holly said...

Love you girl! I know so many people feel that MCs aren't worth remembering but we both know they are very wrong! Your babies are precious and worthy xoxo

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